Her Bully | BBANGSAZ

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"I understand why you would be so pissed at me, Hanni. If the roles were reversed, I would have done worse," I mumble, smiling weakly as she rolls her eyes at me in response.

"No, you'd handle it less violently than I did. You'd probably just walk out and never make a move to let me know you were there," she whispers, rubbing my skin lightly.

I giggle and let out a sigh of deep longing.

"Probably," I drawl, clucking my tongue.

I smile when I remember that flower slap.

"You do know that I had to apply a lot of cream and other stuff to heal the scar, right?" I tell her, arching an eyebrow. I was just playing with her, but it seemed like she was getting flustered.

"Ah—yeah, that—I have no words to explain," she laughs awkwardly, clearing her throat.

"Hanni," I start, tightening my hold on her hands. She looks up at me and smiles weakly. I can see the pain in her eyes, the regret, and something much more.

"I'm sorry for sleeping with another woman."

She shakes her head, blinking her eyes rapidly.

"N-No—"

I shush her. "Don't. What I did was wrong but—right at the same time."

Hanni furrows her eyebrows at me and grits her teeth.

"Oh?" she grunts, swatting my hands away. I go for them again, but she's crossing her arms to deflect me. "Okay."

I sigh and rub her thighs.

"Not in that way, Hanni," I whisper lowly, ducking down to connect our eyes again but failing when she averts her head. "Will you listen to me too?"

She glances at me briefly, and I know that means it's okay.

I take a deep breath and gulp.

"I was alone," I basically blurt out, blushing lightly. "Sure, I was with Ryujin and sometimes with our other friends in college, but it was the first time I ever experienced being—I don't know what to call it, but I had some kind of energy exchange with a lot of women."

She rolls her eyes, chuckling. "Sorry, didn't think you'd be such a—"

I hold a finger up, stopping her.

"Don't say anything you might regret," I mumble, watching her bite her tongue.

"Anyways, it was different. I was still my bubbling mess whenever a girl or guy would ask me out, and it was weird. They took a liking to me. For a couple of weeks, I'd just run off and ignore them because I thought they were playing with me. But this one girl kept on flirting, and I guess I wanted to try it out?" I tell her, smiling softly when I see something flash in her brown eyes.

"The only person I ever dated was you, and that wasn't even a date."

She frowns, knowing I was hinting at that date she never showed up to.

"So, I told myself to let go for a while, you know? To be able to let my heart feel things that I felt with you."

Hanni ducks her head down and places her hands on her lap.

"So, did you feel it? With others, I mean?" she whispers, a strain in her voice.

I shake my head, even though she can't see me, and fake an irritated sigh.

"That's the problem. I just never felt it with anyone but you, and it made me think I was going crazy." I laugh, finally happy to see a reaction from Hanni as she whips her head up and stares at me with a lopsided grin.