Our First Beginnings

confused .ೃ࿔ ✈︎ *:･

Are relationships worth it? It's only ever brought confusion. I trust him, but sometimes I regret making the decision to talk to him. He approached me so suddenly that I thought there was no harm behind it. I know he didn't mean to do anything wrong towards me, but still, that gives him no excuse.

He asked me out. He showed persistent interest in me. I never really noticed his presence before, but I decided to give him a chance anyway. We got along very well. Maybe this was just my doubts but sometimes I can't tell if he's nice to me because he's actually a good person or solely because I know he likes me. He checks up on me all the time, so it feels genuine, but is it really?

I was happy for him when he said he was going to study abroad for the summer. That's an experience I've always wanted. I trusted that everything would go well and nothing bad would happen. That was until my best friend showed me this guy's behavior.

I dislike how he talked about another girl. It wasn't the worst you've heard a guy said, but i swear there was no way he had an accurate description of how a girl acted towards him. He thinks they're flirting when they're really not. He sounded so cocky about it. It wasn't just that. I saw screenshots of him talking to another girl and asking if she was interested in him. Was that necessary or am i just overthinking?

He talked badly about me to his new friends. That's not something you should do around people you've only known for a couple of weeks. That's just how I feel about this. I thought he would be a loyal person, he sounded like he would be, but I guess I can't be right about everyone. I knew my friends said he was weird for a reason, but I didn't think this would be the side of him I'd have to see.

Now I have to find a way to tell him all of this.

Turns out we're just that different.

by: k