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You could have come back into this
With the love you claimed to bring
Then want to imply I am only
Making up problems to make you
Feel bad for the things you did
But perhaps you should have felt bad
And given empathy to the person
You said you would be there for
Instead of gaslighting me into
Thinking building boundaries
Is a form of punishment for you
And believing I wanted you back
After you allowed narcissistic traits
To enable you into not realizing
Maybe you fucked up and
Maybe you should have tried to
Fix it
Blameshifting the whole narrative
So I am the only one wondering
Where I fucked up
Using your own upsetedness
As a deflection to bring back around
How I did not do everything I could
You only tried to tell me I was
Too much
And then say I don't care
When I wake up every morning
Crying
Because I cannot understand why
It was ever okay to justify thinking
I did not deserve to be treated with
Love
Even at the end

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