His Motivation - Nagi Seishiro

03

(A/N: Dropped the next chapter for Sister Isagi, so it's time to update this one.

Hope you enjoy :) )

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'They're all there...'

You stared at Nekoma from behind the gym door. An overwhelming longing to go talk to them gripped at your heart- but for some reason, your legs felt glued to the spot.

'They're all there...Yaku...Kai...Lev...Fukunaga...Yamamoto...they're all there. So why can't I move?'

"Y/N...Y/N...Earth to Y/N..." Bokuto waved a hand across your face. 

You snapped yourself out of your thoughts and winced back almost immediately. "Um, yes?"

"We've been standing here foreverrrrr..." He groaned, his eyebrows knitting together in confusion. "When are we actually going to go outside?"

"Hm?" You hummed, turning to face him. "Soon, soon. Just give me..." A pause. "Five minutes!"

"You said that five minutes ago!" The white-haired huffed, crossing his arms. 

He then swiveled over to his other friend. "C'mon Akaashi, help me out here!"

"L/N-san will go when she's ready." Is all Akaashi said in response.

Bokuto just groaned louder, clearly upset he took your side. "You guys are so boring."

You rolled your eyes, internally smiling to yourself. 'Bokuto's patience is still as non-existent as ever...'

Your gaze slowly wandered back towards the volleyball team standing outside the door. 

'Why am I so scared though...?'  

You didn't want to admit it, but you were. With your trembling legs, shaky palms, and uneven heartbeats, it was very, very obvious.

But the real question was why....

Maybe you thought it would be awkward. Aside the frequent texting and occasional video calls, you hadn't spoken a word to any of them in six months.....so maybe you just didn't know what to say.

Or maybe you just didn't want to bother them. They did look really peaceful right now, drinking water while talking amongst themselves. You were pretty sure you could even see Yaku laughing.

'No...that's not it.' 

You could delude yourself with as many excuses as you thought, but deep down you already knew the answer. 

You felt guilty.

One day, you just walked away from Nekoma. Stopped walking with them after-school, stopped going to train with them, stopped visiting them entirely. 

You didn't realize it until now, but you'd put a lot of distance between you guys....and you were scared they hated you for it. 

"IS THAT A COCKROACH?!"

'A cockroach...?'

Without thinking, you leaped from your spot, forced the door open, and sprinted out of it- desperate to get away from that freaky-ass insect.