One hell of a dreamer!

Glimps of the past

The room fell silent after our conversation. Hitoshi's presence, usually comforting, now felt stifling. I had to get out of here, clear my head, and figure out what was happening with Eri and the sudden appearance of my mother. I took a deep breath and stood up.

Me: Hitoshi, I need to step out for a bit.... and you need medical attention

Hitoshi immediately stepped in front of the door, his face a mixture of concern and I guess it was ancxiousness.

Hitoshi: No, you need to stay here. It's not safe.... and you know it.

Me: But Hitoshi, I need to—

Hitoshi: No. You're not going anywhere. I'll be back soon, just stay put.... I don't want your omega to get the better of you.

He turned and walked out, leaving me alone in the room. He didn't even wait at all for me or anything like that. I would have said no since I knew that I bit him hard. I had to explain this to my mom and I needed to take responsibility for this... and yet he just left me alone in the roo after all that happened.

Maybe this was for the better...

I just needed to clean my mind .....

The door clicked shut after Hitoshi, and the room seemed to close in around me. The past night's events, the confrontation with my mother, and Hitoshi's firm stance swirled in my mind. I was simply put a mess. Nothing at all told me that what I was going through would have a good ending. I couldn't be happy, I couldn't stay confident and my innr fox was ticking out just being so close to my past.

I sank onto the bed, memories flooding back to when I was four years old. It was the day I was diagnosed as an S-ranked omega. The sterile room smelled of antiseptic, the air heavy with the weight of my mother's expectations for me to be an alpha like my father. She was a weak alpha too. It didn't make sense for an Omega to be born, even less for an S-ranked one. 

The doctor's voice was calm but firm that day..... 

Doctor: Your child is an S-ranked omega. This is extremely rare and comes with unique challenges and potentials.

My mother's face, usually so warm, changed that day. I remember it clearly cause it freaked me out. I never seen her like that. Her green eyes, so much like mine, hardened.... they lost their glitter. She avoided my gaze, her smile forced and brittle and even faked soo much that I knew that all she wanted was to push me away, to scream at me and to just leave me... drop me...and abandone me... I knew it in that moment.... I screwed up but I still had some hope. My younger sister, then just a baby, was the joy of the family and the attention while there was this huge shift in our family dynamic.

After that day, my mother distanced herself. She avoided looking at me, touching me. She focused all her attention on my sister, who was deemed "normal." I was left to navigate my identity and abilities alone, isolating me further. For my inner fox, this was devastating and I was basically living on edge and so close to my animalistic instincts..... it's a wonder I never truly did lash out at all.

While I was a bit stuck in the past, I could hear Hitoshi's voice from outside the room, muffled but insistent. He was probably talking to Inko, making sure she wouldn't cause more trouble or go into my room. As much as I remember.... I was still her child on paper... she abandoned me... but she never threw me into an orphanage the offical way.

 For now...I knew I had to endure this, for Eri's sake if nothing else.

Hitoshi returned after a few minutes... he seemed his usual tired self but I could tell that he was quite smiling at me and trying to keep me calm. The pain was probably bugging him and I did doubted that the bite I delivered was just a small bite that is nothing to him. No, it was still a bite. It couldn't been nothing.

Hitoshi: I know it is hard for you right now..... but we are a family now... we'll figure this out...

Some good OHANA shit right there but I knew it was thr truth... this was how he felt.

Me: I know. I just... I remember when I was diagnosed. How my mom changed. How she started avoiding me. It's hard to see her now, after all this time.....

Hitoshi: Wait... She ... what?...... you... what....... whaaa....... wait... hold on..... I..... You know...You're not alone anymore.

His words, simple and sincere, did offer me quite the comfort. Then again, he certainly was surprised to hear me say that. Who wouldn't be? But I nodded, taking another deep breath.

I'll be fine...

I have him and Eri...

Aizawa and Yamada...

They are my family now.

Me: Thanks, Toshi. I appreciate it.

Hitoshi: Anytime.... and just talk when you are ready for it... I won't ask questions 

Me: I appreicate that.... I will tell you all about it....