Give It A Chance

I Don't hate him

Yashna
He thinks I hate him, no I don't hate him the first meeting was clearly a disaster and i misunderstand him but that changes after time
The more I get to know him, the more I understand that he is not a pervert or a idiot.
In fact he is a genius and a gentleman I try many times to start a conversation but everytime I want to try something happened.
The day I call him a idiot I'm talking to someone on call via bluetooth and he thought I called him a idiot which is really silly, and I don't try to clear his misunderstanding because first time I see him angry and I want him to hate me so I just play along and said he is pervert and all, but I take his coffee mug and put it on his table.
He doesn't drink it he thinks I didn't notice him, but that's not true I notice Everything about him every minor detail what he do what he eat what he wear
How girls flirt with him and everything to be honest that' why I maintain my distance from him, he is not good for me.
He distract me I want to see him I want to hear him, I want to see his smile tha way his lips fold upward when he smile.
This scares me how much he effects me already.
The day he took me to hospital the way he stay with me all night, specially when the next morning was so important for him, he sleep on that couch he didn't eat anything.
I feel embraced how I treat him and how he treats me.
I don't know about you but I think I started feeling something for you, and I'm afraid of how things end last time.
The way I end last time, I don't have the power to stand again if I'm falling this time I'll break and Never be back I'll always be a broken piece.

And I don't think you are anywhere near to catch me, so I'll confess this one time
First and last time and then I'll forget about it I'll never mention this again
I..I love him..
The night of launch I saw everything how drunk you are, and how she kissed you you think you jerked her off she think you rejected her kiss but I know I know that you kissed her for 6 seconds that you take six fucking seconds to come to your senses.
And that hurts to see you kissed her I wanted to go from there, I wanted to go the second she threw herself on you..
But I'm glad I stay otherwise that slut gonna ruin your career you image everything.
You don't remember what happened after she left I came to get you not in that way, and you kissed me I don't know if you kissed me or you thought I'm someone else, but we kissed, the way your hand touches me the way your eyes undress me I feel naked with fully clothed you kissed me like you are hungry and I'm the feast you get. And after this earth shaking act you just fainted clear indication of how drunk you are, it took me some minutes to get hold of myself and I have to carry you to the parking where my car is parked.
Putting you in car was a big task because you are heavy and tall.
After dropping you home I couldn't sleep, how can I sleep when you are over me, you will definitely not remember a single thing but here I am remember every tiny detail about today.
From that day there's not a single night that I didn't think of you
Imissed your lips on mine, your hands roaming here and there.
But you don't know me, you don't know anything about my past, you don't even like me, and you are right about it why would anybody like someone like me, selfish self centred rude arogant
So I have to maintain distance from you I can't let my guards down. I am not gonna repeat same mistake.
I'll protect you and me both of us from any kind of hurt.
So I'm gonna confess this one more time today I love you..