the thing about having neurotypical friends is that you can't talk to them about your stims. at least im my experience. maybe it's that you can only talk about shit like that on the internet and this is exactly why i even have this "book"
i got to my first class today three minutes late after 2 hours of sleep and 45 minutes of running out of breath and i could feel my insides vibrating and im cold and tired and hungry and sad and impatient and jittery and the lesson was so boring i just cant
somehow my lunch group has expanded from me and 4 friends to at least 10 people im not friends with and only 2 of my friends wtf happened its so loud now and overstimulating and im surrounded by people so why do i feel so alone
interaction i was part of the other day:
Me: *has only eaten a small bowl of cereal all day*
my dad: you HAVE to eat! we are ending your eating disorder TODAY
me: you can't love an eating disorder away tho
my mum: what eating disorder? you don't have an eating disorder!
me: *shrugs* dad said i have an eating disorder, not me
ok but like wtf if you think your child has an eating disorder do something about it, that something not being force-feeding them. get them therapy or smth, professional help works too
i can't wait for my 2024 spotify wrap. my music taste has changed or maybe im exaggerating but i wanna see who my top artists are and what genre i listen to the most and when i listened to the most music because that tells me when i was the saddest and i wanna compare wraps with my friends and i want spotify to make a 'music solemate' thing where you are paired with the person whose music taste is the most similar to yours so you can make new friends
