IN WHICH he has her dress of hers that she rarely wore, and still has it hung up in his closet in his bedroom, the only article of clothing in the middle of his closet and he longed to give it back to her and ask her for forgiveness.
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IN WHICH she...
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February 23rd, 2024
"Fuck" she said way too loudly, her balance loosing itself and she quickly grabbed onto Niall.
Eyes immediately found her weakened body, everyone staring but Niall immediately grabbed her, hugging her. He hadn't understood her weird outbursts like these that she's had for years.
He could feel the blonde's heavy breathing, a panic attack, he silently cursed to himself before looking to the waitress "Sorry, uh nevermind"
The 20 year old waitress nodded as Niall situated Ashlyn so he could carry her back to his car.
She gripped onto his shirt, breathing deeply and panicky as she felt him walking quickly so that he can get her into the car, she could already see a few paparazzi cameras flashing and she tried to hide from the cameras.
They got to the car and he immediately got her into the passenger seat, closing the door before going to his side, still very curious about what started this panic attack.
"Ashe..?" he said carefully, watching her intently as her shoulders shook, her body in a ball
"I cant go in there" she muffled her words behind her knees
He sighed, thankful she was at least a little bit verbal "talk to me, darling, please"
Her breathing shook and she put a hand out to niall, needing some kind of contact "it's a lot"
"I dont know this trigger, do I?" he asked softly and watched as she shook her head, immediately taking her hand in his. he kissed her hand, not caring if it was a more romantic gesture, he knew she needed comfort.
"Im not proud of it, I-" she paused, looking up at him "I was a junkie"
He was flabbergasted but didnt show it, he just showed his relaxed expression "did the guy have whatever drug you used to use?"
She nods with a frown "he had a corona with blue curacao too" she paused, taking in nialls relaxed look "I havent had that since I overdosed 10 years ago"
He squeezed her hand "lets get your favourite food and go to the venue, we can go chill out until I have to go on and soundcheck and be a stinky singer" he smiled, lighting up the mood with his words which made her melt, leaning in to kiss his lips that were so close.
He watched as she leaned in, he knew she was vulnerable and this was one of the ways she thanked him, he just moved closer and let her.
They both felt the butterflies in their stomachs as they kissed, it was only a simple lingering peck but it was enough for her mind to scream at her to trust him again, to date him again.
She pulled away and looked into Niall's eyes "sorry I-"
"Don't, I know youre vulnerable and it was a thank you, I don't mind that you do it, ok? no strings attached" he cut her off immediately
She hesitantly put her hand up, putting it onto his cheek "I still shouldnt have, we've been broken up for 5 years"
"No strings attached, we can kiss, you can kiss me and I wont kiss back if it makes you feel better" he said "or I can kiss you and you dont kiss back"
She frowned at his words, she was so hesitant with him, she felt like the recovering junkie that met him years ago all over again. "kiss me" she whispered so quietly he barely picked her words up
He did as told, smashing his lips against hers like he did the first time they got together. He kept the kiss simple, not pushing her to a make out but teased her lips with his tongue which she giggled to.
She playfully bit at Niall's tongue whenever he licked her, giggling like a child in primary school
He smiled and pulled away, staring at her "you're like a puppy, biting at my tongue like that"
She couldnt help but laugh "you're a cat then, teasing my lips with your tongue"
He pecked her lips once again "what kind of cat?"
"An orange one" she smiled as she peckdd him back "you're weird like one, what dog would I be?"
He hummed "a black lab" he pulled some of her hair behind her ear
"We're like a black cat and golden retriever but reverse" she chuckled and put her hand down onto his neck "we should probably go, its close to 1 already"
He sighed "but I could stay here and kiss you all I want"
"Niall" she sighed back, poking his thigh "I'm hungry, lets go"
He groaned "more kisses first" he grinned cheekily
She rolled her eyes "I'll cry again" she threatened
He immediately put his hand around the car keys, turning the car on before making his way to a McDonald's "you're so mean to me"
"We still aren't together again, I need to regain trust in you" she mumbled "can I play music?"
He nods and pulled his phone out, handing her his phone "it's our anniversary"
"What?" she asked as she took his phone
"The passcode" he added
She made an 'o' with her lips before opening his phone with their anniversary date with no zeroes. She navigated his phone but paused as she finally noticed his home screen, the photo they took after he asked her to marry him.
She blinked tears away, her heart pounding as she picked Spotify, immediately finding something to play which she saw he was last listening to 'Till Forever Falls Apart'.
"You listened to my EP?" she asked as she pressed play
He nods "yeah, I wanted to hear how much you've been hurting, what you won't express to me"
She bit down onto her lip "it's about us" she confessed, "most of the EP is"
He glanced at her, putting his hand out to her to take "i think I knew that a bit" he teased "Moral of the Story screamed that it's about me"
She bit her lip as she accepted his hand "it's about the engagement, yeah"
He nods and squeezed her hand "can I cover one of your songs tonight?" he asked randomly
"What?" she asked, her mind racing now at the thought of him singing a song that was about him
"I want to cover one of your songs, maybe with you if you want to come onto the stage" he rambled "I really want to sing 'Till Forever Falls Apart'"
She frowned, tears threatened to fall, nobody had ever asked to cover one of her songs, nobody cared about her music enough to sing her songs "you'd want to duet it?"
He nods as he parked in the McDonald's car park, "Moral of the Story is too heartbreaking"
"Hey now, MOTS is my baby" she defended the song
He smiled "your usual?" he nodded to the fast food joint with a hum
"Please" she confirmed and moved to press a kiss to his skin "thank you"
He nods and kissed her back "I'll be right back, don't be an idiot" he teased
She chuckled "promise"
He got out of the car with his phone in hand, leaving the car on so she could have the air conditioner on.
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