Chapter 8
Song: Left Alone Sleeping With Sirens
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Ash's P.O.V
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*few days since arguement*
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I hadn't talked to kellin at all. Oli sat with me as I cried into his shoulder. He didnt know why I was crying. Thank the lord it was our time off so I could just stay here and not do my makeup. Ricky was sitting across from us with ghost and chris.
I had a tissue in my hand and kept crying. Everyone asked every once in a while,
"Ash why are you crying?" Chris asks.
"Nothing!"
Ricky stands up and starts to call someone. I just kept crying. Oli sighs, "C'mon you have to tell us why you're crying! You've been really sad for days now!"
Ricky sits back down, "I called kellin to see if he could do something. Since he's your best friend."
I blew up at the fact that ricky called kellin,
"WHYD YOU CALL HIM RICKY?!? WHY?!? I DONT WANT TO SEE HIM RIGHT NOW!"
"ASH YOU DONT WANT TO SEE ANYONE RIGHT NOW BUT HES MY LAST RESORT!!"
I run to the bathroom and slid down the little space that was available. I heard the bus door close.
"She locked herself into the bathroom. I dont know what to do with her.." I hear ricky say.
"Shit she wont listen to me."
"Trust me she will."
Light knocks stopped my sobbing sounds, "Fireant (name he calls ash when shes sad), please come out of the bathroom."
"Fuck off. Im just a whore bored with my own lame life. You said so yourself."
I heard kellin slide down on the other side of the door.
"Please, Ash, Im so sorry. I didnt mean it."
"I deserve to fucking die. I dont belong in the world."
"But thats not true...Youre worth so much in the world ash. You arent a whore. Your life isnt lame."
"I should've killed myself when the kids at school told me to.. Im a worthless piece of shit."
"Lilliana Ash Olson, I will break down the door if you dont come out right now."
I could tell he wasnt pleased. I got up lazily and exited the bathroom. Kellin hugged me tightly. I just went limp and broke down more than I did.
I didnt hug kellin back. I didnt have the power to. I pushed him off of me and went to my bunk. I didnt want to see anyone. Especially kellin.
Yeah i know what youre thinking, 'KELLIN JUST DID THIS WHOLE THING AND YOU IGNORE HIM YOU STUPID BITCH! I WOULD KILL TO HAVE KELLIN SAY THOSE THINGS TO ME THAT HE JUST SAID TO YOU!'
The thing is, I didnt want to see anyone. Kellin hurt me deep down. Though I know I hurt him too.
My curtain was ripped open by chris who picked me up and pinned me to the couch just so I could talk to kellin.
"Speak." Chris demanded. I had just noticed everyone had left, even oli.
"What do you want me to say? Im sorry."
Kellin mutters, "it would be nice."
"YOU HURT ME TOO KELLIN! Y-YOU CALLED ME A WHORE. IVE BEEN CALLED A WHORE ALMOST ALL MY LIFE! You just dont understand!"
"Well you basically made this whole god damned speech about me getting into your business! Im sorry that I was just curious!!"
I sigh, "We're not getting anywhere with this...Im sorry for being a bitch."
"Im sorry for calling you a whore."
Chris got off my legs and said, "Now, Ash, you can go to your bunk and kellin go back to your bus!"
I drag myself to my bunk and look out the window. I hear the door close and my curtain open once more. It was Oliver.
"Want to go watch Fear in the back with me?"
I nod and hop into his arms. He smiles and kisses me.
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Lots of drama past few chapters! Ill see yall later because god damn its 1 almost 2 am here. LOVE YA
