Few More Reasons To Live

chapter 37

Mateo's POV

I kissed her Without warning, without consent, without conclusion, without permission. Without even deciding to do it, but simply because I couldn't have done anything else. I didn't know what to do...but to kiss her. I needed that breath she was holding. It belonged to me and I wanted it back without the thought of right and wrong. I wanted to think rationally, again. But her being so close to me looking right in my eyes with lips parted ohh fuck, I wanted my sanity back. And my everything is her. So I took it.  She affect me so much , more than I can explain.

So I did the thing I wanted to do since the day I saw her. I kissed her.

That was the best thing I had ever done in my life. Her lips were so soft that I thought I was tasting clouds. I devoted her lips, chewed it . We both were out of breath but it was unable to leave her lips, So soft and delicate. Eventually, with a lot of struggle and an upset heart I detached my lips from her's. And apologised to her because it was wrong, I should have asked her. I didn't want to ruin whatever we have together. She trusts me enough to let me hold her but I'll never take advantage of it. Never.

She is the Bane of my existence, the reason for me to wake up every morning. I started living after she came into my life, before that I was dead. As I was apologising she shocked me by placing her lips on mine, I knew I was her first the way she was kissing and I feel lucky, proud to be the man who steals her first kiss.
I'll always be grateful to the universe for giving me this precious gift. I don't know what I did to deserve her, deserve her presence in my life. But now as I know how it feels to be with her, to hold her, kiss her, listen to her voice, her laughter, the feeling when she see me and smile, the shining of her eyes, the way her hair covers her face as the soft breeze blows against us.

Now that I know how it actually feels to be with her, I promise to never let her go. No matter what. I know I may sound selfish but in her case I can't risk it. She is mine and mine alone.

Our first kiss was a mixture of jealousy, possessiveness, anger and love. But our second kiss is filled with pure love, admiration, and devotion.

As we separated which I never wanted though. She was breathing heavily, her chest was rising and falling way too faster than normal. A pink hue was adoring her cheeks. My chest and shoulder were warming against her palm. My hands were still on her I don't want to remove it ever. Then I slowly and lovingly kissed her forehead and let my lips stay there for some moments. It's a nice feeling.

I wrapped my arms around her and hugged her for a good minute, it's like coming home. Somebody knocked on her door calling her down for the function. It all went well. I was back to my cold self because you cannot let the world know that you are happy or the world will snatch it right from your face.

We came home, home. This house is now home as my piccola is here. While having dinner I got to know about the attack , I had to go and ensure everything is fine or not. I kissed her forehead, told her to eat well and sleep but I see in her eyes she was worried about me and that was enough for me at least she is concerned about me, next maybe she will confess her love. Back to earth Mateo.

As I arrived there , I saw some of my men were injured not anything serious. I checked if they were fine or if they needed anything after being satisfied I told Josh to find who did this. We all worked and without notice the night turns to day and night again. I'm missing her badly it's like a part of me is left behind but I know better she is more than just a part of me. Who ever will remember me will remember tanishka too. We are connected.

I finished my work and head home it's already past midnight.

What she would be doing, sleeping ofcourse. As I reached home and opened the door so silently but anyway it make some sound. The door need some oiling. My footsteps were silent as I was trained to walk like a ghost, it helps when you are are surrounded with peoples who wants to kill you and you have to escape without anyone's notice.

I headed toward our room but something caught my eyes. Kitchen's light is on, I went towards it. Some one is sitting on the counter deep in thoughts. A dozen of questions appear why is she up yet? For a midnight snack? Does not she had dinner?

Is she waiting for me..?? Nah that's not the case. No.

As concern wash over me I can't resist but ask.

NO Mateo No Food.... Her slogan.

She is crazy.
For me..

I should not feel good about it right?.

I'm working on my laptop, and she is in the bathroom changing wish I was also there. Shut up mind.

It feels so good , that now I have someone who waits for me. Even if it's silly of her but I'll lie if I say that it doesn't make me feel good. A warmth. Loved or special whatever the right word is, I loved that feeling but she should not have stayed empty stomach all day it will affect her health and I can't risk it so I have decided a punishment for her.

She came out of the bathroom, looking fresh wearing my tshirt and black lowers. I don't know why but whenever I see her wearing my clothes there is this urge to fuck the sense out of her. Her eyes met mine and a smile instantly adored her lips, Jesus Christ, I'm dead. Her smile is the death of me, I'll do anything just to see her smiling face, anything.

She climbed beside me yeah we decided to sleep on the same bed, well she was stubborn and said she will sleep on the couch but I too am THE MAFIA  KING, we debated but I convinced her saying I'll sleep on the floor if she dares to sleep on the couch and the result is we are sharing the bed. YES.

She was about to sleep when I stopped her, she looked tired. Should I do the punishment thing some other day.

"What" her voice snaps me out of my thoughts and fuck my balls she sounds so sexy.

"You forgot your punishment baby" my voice was raspy and horsy coated with desired.

"Wh-ahmm-what punishment, haha we should sleep ain't you tired" her humourless chuckle makes me laugh, my, my so innocent cutie pie soon to be wife. I pulled her causing to land directly on my lap. I made her sit with both her legs on either side of me so that she could face me.

"Can I do things with you baby" I groaned in her ear while lightly nibbling on it. She didn't say anything just closed her eyes and breathed heavily.

"Baby are you uncomfortable?"

"No"

"Do you want me to continue" she nodded fuck she looks, so cute, so adorable, so sexy. How can a person look cute and sexy at the same time.

"WORDS, sweetheart. I need words" I whispered softly while tracing my tump on her lower lips.

"Ye-yes" it's good to see that I too have an effect on her. She is the fire I am happy to burn in. She is the poison I'm grateful to drink.

With her consent I tried my luck and went further. Attacking her neck, sucking, licking and chewing it like a candy. My hand travel inside her tshirt slowly. I can feel her breathing getting shorter. While painting her neck I draw different patterns on her belly which earn me a sweet laughter from her.

"I'm ticklish Mateo" better now it will be more fun.

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