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There Nova was laying in another person arms, something she didn't plan to do. She couldn't stop thinking about Chris. His eyes and his hair.
"You wanna go now?" He turns to her. She looks at him with confusion.
"It is dark outside.." She looks outside.
"Too fucking bad. You come over to cuddle. I told you I just wanna you know..." He smirks at her while moving close to her.
"Oh uhmm. I'll go." She heads down and tears immediately stream down her face. She reaches for her phone to call Leila. ————————————————————
✥𝚗𝚘𝚟𝚊's 𝙿𝙾𝚅✥ ---------------------------------
"Leila pl-please pick me up" I cried over the phone. "Nova what happened?" I broke down in tears causing Leila to run out of the house with her keys. "Don't worry Nova. I'm on my way love." I nod "okay."
Hanging up the phone causes more tears to flow out. I was there crying on the sidewalk, no one was around. I was cold and lonely. If Chris was around maybe he would help, there was no way that would happen. We hadn't talked in days.
Crouched in the cold as my tears hit the jagger ground. I had no coat or anything to keep me warm just my tank top.
I feel a hand on my shoulder and a familiar voice. "Nova..hey.." Leila moves closer to me pulling me in. "Let's get you warm okay?" She places me in the car and turns on the heat slowly wiping my tears.
"Why does everyone I ever like treat me like this?" She sighs. "You'll find the one I promise.." I shake my head "what if.. n-nobody wants me?" She frowns "Baby I promise you will find the person. You are young, live your life and love yourself. What is better than love? Knowing yourself before anything else." She flashed a sincere smile as she starts the car.
Driving along the bridge, I look at water that was under us. I look around me to see the city lights that glowed around us. I wondered was love a being or state, where was it when I needed it the most. Seeing everyone find it made me feel clueless. Crazy how your brain tells you love is not real but your heart tells you what you really feel. Where was Chris when I needed him, where was my love?
Where was my dad? Where was my mind? why did shift and bring up the thought that love is bullshit? And when did I want to stop loving so much?
Right now.
But I sat there knowing there was good in people somewhere, there was love surrounding somewhere. But where? At least not in my world.
"Leila how is Chris? I haven't talked to him since...what happened." She looked at me. "I'll ask Matt, I haven't been over there since it happened. Matt is coming over to my place instead now. I don't wanna face Chris after what he did to you." I nod at her.
"It's okay to feel how you feel. Girl I would but then you gotta understand that love is a part of us that we haven't discovered." Woah. What did she mean by that. "What does that meannnnn?" I drag my hands down my face as I'm giggling. "It just means you have to find yourself Nova" I smile knowing what she meant.
Love is a part of us that we haven't discovered? Those words will definitely linger my mind for days maybe even years.
"Okay we are here Nova." She starts to get out the car and open my door. I stand up immediately hugging her. "Thank you Leila. For everything." She giggles while returning the hug. "Of course Nova and if you need anything, I'm here." I pull away and walk towards the door to be greeted by cold air that filled my house.
I sit on the couch.
Our friendship was apart of me I never understood. It was just there. I grew close to Leila for a reason. Why? ————————————————————
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