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Sinking Painful

Why does a strangers face feel so warm to talk to sometimes???? I started a new job about a week ago. The job pays lousy. Lousy is in eight different forms and 9 different flavors. I worked at a Subway. My 3rd day my boss left my on my own.....Barely any knowledge... Count the drawer yourself all prep by yourself take orders do lobby by yourself and if you can't your fired. She came in today and fired me.... "I need to talk to you" she says obviously irritated that I called her out on her attitude the day before slamming stuff giving customers death stares treating me like a dog in front of eyes I've never seen before. It's embarrassing really.... "Okay" I said with you know the white boy polite boy nod . I tuned her out as soon as she said she had to let me go. Keep in mind.. I recently left my wife.... And have been staying with my parents because I have no where to go... Love is cheap.. divorce isn't.. I walked out and one of the managers that helped train me said something to me and I just could have cared less. It's such a rush when your such an anxious person in public. Are people staring? Are they gawking at me? What are they thinking? Why is this so crowded? I can't breathe and I can't move. Walking out that door was like floating almost..... Completely fucked over because there expectations were beyond repair for someone just starting..... I think chapter two I will speak on my trans boyfriend and our adventures and other things if anyone enjoyed this read maybe not. Lol