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Sex

*Read at your own risk*
It has become so easy to share yourself exposed and into pleasure we wash our hands. A drug of wanting, a drug of needing, a dash of lust half truths and a need to forget and be forgotten.
We never read into anyone anymore... The back cover with a small glimpse of maybe who we are. We are so afraid to be alone we rent our bed to strangers.... I have.... Touch me, caress me, adore me and want me just in that moment because anything more turns into a disease decaying life built on foundations of dust and harbored insecurities.  Can you honestly blame anyone for not wanting a relationship. But they do always crave something to make them feel like the only one but may never sink much farther because all the time your trying to change the breath that gives them life.

To attach yourself on because we really have nothing else to hold onto. Live our lives through someone else and never finding truth within ourselves almost afraid to.

Make me float with seductive fingertips... Kiss here there or anywhere..... Please give yourself to me like I will you.... Fade into me and belong to me babe.... Use until the night clears and the day shimmers. It is up to you but I wish you would forget me now.... I'll never be good enough in at least my state of mind. No matter how much passion there may be I begin to think why me and hear voices of doubt and no reason. You may moan softly or move your body with so much art it's a dance digging your hands into me as if looking for food or a deeper meaning of this but I feel so awkward and exposed. Embarrassed like an animal in a cage being gawked at by those that think they are free. I've thought of all day how to cherish you and I just know I have to almost brace myself to feel nothing but I feel you with everything I have. In reality I won't bitch how shaky my heart is or how insecure I feel and to taste you sincerely and playfully.

I've always felt reduced to atoms in anyone's company especially a lover . ... Numb almost to the seductiveness of your body but I crave it so like nicotine. Inadequate I'll always feel no matter what you say or what action may take place. It all feels so heavenly and so good until I realize how irrelevant I feel. I find it almost sickening you want me..... Everyone wants to escape me and so will you...