Sita: His Unknown Desire

22.

           S I T A   

"Sita, are you fine now?" I ignored Devika's words and keep rubbing my hands under the water. No I'm not. I'm feeling so uncomfortable now. I'm done with cutting human bodies. I need to clean the blood from my hands.

I took some more hand wash in my hand and kept rubbing my hands. I'm not feeling well. Really, I'm not. I know, I should be more confident but I can't.

"Sita, Stop" Devika hold my hand, stopping me from rubbing my hands further. I looked around the washroom, some heads were turned towards me, but I don't care. Not now. I don't know if I would be able to eat my lunch today.

"Everything is fine, Sita." Devika patted my shoulder softly as I took few breaths, trying to calm myself. She hold my hand and walked out from the washroom, to the classroom as I sat down.

"Drink some water" I took the water bottle from her and drink it. "Relax, ok?" Devika sat beside me as my nerves starts slowly calming down.

My internship is going to end soon but still I feel uncomfortable while cutting human bodies. Take breath, Sita. Take breath.

"Feeling better?" She asked as I glanced at her and nodded slowly. I looked down at my hand, white. God. It's looking so white. "I know it's hard but you need to prepare yourself Sita."

"From next year, your internship will finish and you have to do thousands of surgeries." I hate that she's right. "Do you want more water?" I shook my head slowly and took another deep breath.

"Now, relax ok? Just don't vomit." I smiled a little and nooded. "But there's one thing, something is bothering you, Sita? I noticed it few times. You can tell me " I glanced back at her. Yes, something is do bothering me and I only told Ayat about this but I think I should tell Devika too. At least, I believe her.

I told her everything that happened with me. That creepy Stalker who sent me those treating messages. Everything. I could see how her eyes widened up at my words but I kept telling.

"What? This much things happened? Are you suspecting anyone?" I shook my head as she sighed. I really don't. None of my friends are psycho like this stalker, who don't want to take the answer that I'm married.

"I don't know who is this but don't let him really occupying your mind. You can't spend your life, getting scared by him and really thinking more about him, will make your mind a big mess" I stared at her and nodded.

I also decided that I'm not going to continue my life, getting scared by this creep. I'm not going to do this. And she's right, I need to stop thinking about him. The more I would think about this, the more it would mess my mind.

Why the hell I lied to Aranyak, yesterday? I got a chance and I needed to told him everything but.. shit. No, Arnav is still trying to getting more informations about this man and first, the most important thing to do for me is, telling Aranyak everything. I need to tell him everything. I can't keep it like a secret.

"Have you tell Aranyak about this?" I shook my head as she sighed. "I guessed, but I think you should tell him as this stalker is giving threats to hurt him. He should be aware" I nodded. "I will."
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"Sita, four big boxes came for you " maa said as I looked at her in confusion. "For me? But, I didn't order anything, maa " what the hell? Parcel for me? Mainly, four big boxes?

"Oh, but those boxes came for you. Vijay took it to your study room, go and check." I still sitting on the sofa, looking at her in confusion. "But maa, i didn't order anything. Do you know who sent this?" Maa shook her head as I sighed and stood up from the sofa. Kartik? But he had already sent me my books and things, then?