prayer for player

Chapter 8

Mama wasn't abusive but she sure was harsh whenever she was stressed out ... She would GET really loud toned and she would scream so bad at us she would say all sorts of crazy nonsense sometimes be hurting and catching your feelings especially when she says she should gotten a babysitter or drop her kids off to someone else house ; the words was cruel ...unforgettable At times; We still loved her we talked about it as years went back it was funny now but I do remember various she would sing to herself and start painting ; like she start taking out her paint brushes out on dinner table in the kitchen it was her way to cope and your way ; you know you was in trouble . Big Time; she start singing to herself loudly you couldn't irruption her but you couldn't leave the table either you had to sit there with her until she told you to move as you watch her paint kindly wierd cheerful way to her self watching her facial expressions. WE knew mama was crazy ; you can start asking questions and telling her your side of the situation or how it happened but if you got into trouble it was a your way of knowing you in trouble
These dreams was intense
Mama kept saying that boy is no good for you
I got up went to bathroom started puking I was hot I was sweating I didn't know what was wrong lately with me
Suddenly Portia was knocking don't be using my house as a trap out what you hiding out of here past couple of days
Can't I just get a good morning i said
No she said Jeremiah
She opened the door are you okay when the last time you went to the doctors
I'm fine I said it's probably a hangover from yesterday
I didn't see you drinking yesterday I went to same party
How do you know you always with devon and Javon
She looked at me no serious Jeremiah maybe you should go to doctors
I'm fine I always get like this I get nightmares and night sweats real bad
Yeah but you being throwing up lot lately and you look like you losing weight you taking any drugs
Noo I said after mama do you think I will
No she said I'm call the doctor have them get you check out
Where's Cree I haven't seen your son for like few days
Probably with that girl she said she didn't sound to happy about that
Alexa play wait for you by tems
I started dancing with my sister trying to make her feel better Cree was young but he lived as a rich so so of course he was always busy either at school or with a girl or at a party he was young probably just living but his mama had troubles understand her son was growing up why you always tryna dance
Girl I'm trying to make you feel better she laughed you suck she said how do you get woman with that dance
Oh I do I said smirking
I'm the best I said
She looked at him for few moments then she joined him just like old times she thought
In her room when the nights just him and her