prayer for player

Chapter 15 cherrie

Saturdays was the only day I looked forward too my little brother Jeremiah used to come over to my mama house he used to bring snacks that kid always had snacks I never understand why he always had food but whenever he came over was the only day I wasn't on punishment we sit in the living room while dad would take care of so call business he always made sure to bring me a bag of hot Cheetos I loved spicy food so much even if it hurt people stomach we watch the 90s shows the only time I was allowed to watch tv
You see I didn't understand why it was so hard for me to understand why my life is the way it is. Maybe it has something to do with a lady name princess loans. She just happens to be my mom. You see my mom is the talk of my block she never got married after all she is on drugs and more. Which is a sad thing because she does have 5 kids that includes me and my older brother who belong to Charles. She allows no help to put out for her. She feels she could do everything on her own. She just making babies sometimes I wonder how she even got the name mother. It's almost like she doesn't even love us. I mean if I was to be a mom and a drug addict the most I would want for my kids is want help I mean she out all night never home so there's never any mother form at home she tells us to lock the door and never answer it for no one I mean no one the least my sisters and brother has is me I'm only 15 years old so I can't get a job because I'm too young so therefore there no food in the house is why when Jeremiah come over here I'll be acting like I haven't eaten in days the lady next door sometimes watches us too feeds us we lived in the same building on the same floor .my likes of a mother came by because when I was younger I can actually say I had a mother she wasn't good to us or to me but there was a time she was a real mother it just something changed inside of her there was a time my mom was always there for me. I never had to call for help more than 1 time cause she stood by my side from the moment I woke up to the time I lay my head down to go to sleep. It's all different now, whenever my father came over slept in the living room I use to steal money out his coat pocket what choice did I had I always thought it was Christmas when I found $200 dollars in his pocket one time I even stole a pack cough drops hall packs from his pocket ate the whole thing I got sick my dad never expected it was me stealing his money he use to think he got drunk at the club people stole money from him while he was drunk he around tons of people and woman heartbreak for many..

It wasn't until I got older I started dancing at this rich girls house for her father when I use to make my bread you couldn't tell me nothing then and even now.... I was a stripper working at her father strip club

Now it's 10pm I always had trouble sleeping but with all my might I try to fall back to sleep but the sounds of police sirens going back and fourth up and down my block it's keeping me from falling asleep. It always happens around this time. The petersons down the block ..... they re the worst people here. Ifs it's not a shoot out it's their loud ass parties. In which wakes up every one on the block including the people on the other blocks as well. I figured they need me but I just cants do the things that a mother can do iam only 15 as I lay up in my bed I try to focus on the fact that at least I have someone to call my mom. Sometimes I hear grown folks saying "be kind to what you have because when it's all gone you going to wish it was kind to you."

I'm thankful as I got older when I heard Jeremiah mom pass away my mother started rehab and she got better and she slowly staying sober and now we slowly repaired our relationship it took long time but I'm thankful she well and alive no longer taking drugs.

I like singing a diva like a hustler by Beyoncé

My door bell rang I answered my door it was my brother Jeremiah his face was all bloody I was like hell no don't be coming in here
He smiled and said girl you don't open this door right now I gotta take a leak he said I let him in don't wake up my baby I said do you know how hard it is putting a baby a sleep
Girl he said that must be your first one but I know he said he went to the bathroom use it then he cleaned his face
He was in California
She folded her hands and stood in the bathroom she couldn't watch any longer started cleaning his face off
Bro what happened to you
Nothing he said you don't gotta be all in my business
Um your my brother so you are my business she said
No you don't gotta know... do you got pain killers he ask
H
She went to get pain killer then the Bible and placed his hand on it and starting praying what the hell you do that for
Well she said you won't tell me what stuff you got into so I'm praying my best to watch over you because I don't know what you got yourself into nowadays
How sweet he said sipping the water in the sink she got him so bandages to cover his face and hand
Just business he said
Right she said finshing him up making sure he looked good
You ate she said
Aww look at sister feeding me now
You all grown now
She smiled it's the least I can do make sure you goods