A Book Called Desire

VII. Jealousy And Pre-Propsal

It was supposed to be like any other party Kai had attended before.

So what if the hostess is making him sit on a chair and performing some kind of lap dance on him while wearing revealing clothes? So what if that said hostess grabs his jaw and dumps a slot of drink on him then kisses him, sharing that said drink? So what if, again, the hostess has been known to have feelings for him and pursues him relentlessly?

It's her birthday and her party. She can do the fuck she wants.

What is not supposed to happen is his best friend hit him on the head while still kissing and saying to his ear heatedly, "I'm gonna fucking kill you after this, Chaimongkon!"

It baffles him as Kla isn't someone who resorts to violence. "What the fuck, Kla?"
Then he gets elbowed by Art who points with his chin.

And there he is.

The evidence that he fucked up.

Macau claps along with everybody while a different kind of smile paints his expression. He nudges his chin high while he stares at Kai. "Well done," he mouths then leaves the circle.

Fuck.

He hurriedly gets up and pursues. He follows Macau from behind. "It's not what you think!"

"I don't think anything."

"I can explain."

"You don't have to."

"Look, Mac," he pulls the sleeves of Mac's shirt and forces him to face him. "It means nothing. It is just harmless fun."

Macau nods. "Sure. Like I said, you don't need to explain anything to me. You can have harmless fun with as many people as you want. It's not like we are in a relationship."

The last sentence hits him like a hard punch. It gets him to see red. "Fucking say that again, I dare you!"

Macau stares at him daringly then walks away. He wants to stalk but someone holds him back. Kla. "What?" he shouts, taking back his arm. He attempts to walk again toward Macau who gets closer to Dec.

Out of all people.

But Kla is persistent. He looks at his best friend with a thin patient. "What?" he asks again through gritted teeth. "I'm not letting you near him if you don't clear your head."

That sentence implies that Kla is afraid he will assault Macau physically. "What are you taking me for, Kla? I will never put my hands on him that way!"

"You are not known for a gentle approach when you're angry, Kai, and right now you are!"

"Oh, fuck you, Kla! So what am I supposed to do? Just watch while Dec is seducing my boyfriend there?"

"You're not acting like you're his boyfriend five minutes ago!" Kla shouts back. He thanks God that the music is loud enough to drown them.

They have a staring competition for a moment before Kai backs out with his hands in surrender mode. "Ok, fine. I'll just watch. But if he fucking kisses him, I'll jump him!"

So now he is forced to watch his boyfriend get peachy with Dec. They smile, laugh, and talk. There are occasionally hand brushes to parts of Mac's body that he hates. The last straw is when Mac puts his leg on top of Dec provocatively and Dec happily holds on to it.

After that scene, Kai looks away and busies himself with his drinks.

Then familiar thighs appear on his lap, straddling him. Kai doesn't smile but his eyes travel north until his eyes catch Macau's. His beautiful boy is not smiling either.