A Book Called Desire

XIV. Defining Us (5)

Kai watches Macau who looks like a kid in a candy store as he watches Kla's team get on with race preparation. It's hectic and Macau tries hard not to get in the way. He is sure if he is not a Theerapanyakul and his scary brother is here, he will be scolded by someone.

"Ah, the boyfriend is finally here." Kai smiles as Kla moves closer to him. "You spoiled him too much."

"You like me spoiling him."

Kla shrugs. "Yeah, you're right. Since I don't have any real younger brother or sister, he will do. Macau is not like any other rich kid, after all. He may look like a brat, but he actually knows his place and is polite and kind, and generous. Vegas taught him well."

Kai nods. "That is why I'm always scared that if I take my eyes off him even just for a second, I might lose him." Kai sighs a heavy breath. "I can't live without him, Kla. I won't live without him."

Kla chuckles. "That bad, huh? You know, you change so much after you are with him. Just like how Vegas changed after Pete. You used to laugh at him for that, saying he got robbed of fun things because little mister at home," he teases Kai. Kai laughs a little. "Yeah, that bites me in the ass. With his little brother no less."

"Are you worried about Nao?" Kla asks after observing Kai's face. Kai nods. "It's not looking good, Kla. Statistically, I will lose if I fight him head-on. Mac said that Vegas said it's only Nao's game. Apparently, he likes playing mind games like this a lot. But when I saw him, I didn't think it was a game. I think it's so much more."

"Do you think he's falling for Cau? He's straight!"

"Yeah, Kim's report states that also. But I don't know. There is something with the way he looks at Mac ..."

"Don't overthink it! You said it yourself, he likes to play mind games. Now, he is playing with your mind."

Kai nods. "Yeah, it's too early to worry about anything. All I know is I'm not going to let go of Mac. He will have to kill me if he wants to rob Mac for me!"

Kla claps his back. "That's the spirit!"

Kai then sits on a chair and chats with Vegas and Pete as Kla gets ready and has his warm-up laps. When Macau sits on his lap, his arms automatically circle Macau's waist. The chat doesn't even pause. Vegas doesn't even bat his eyes anymore, neither does Pete.

Kai rubs his hand on Macau's stomach as his little boyfriend excitedly watches Kla from the monitor in the room. He kisses Macau's shoulder and neck absentmindedly as he diligently responds to what Vegas and Pete ask him. When Vegas and Pete are engrossed with the monitor also, Kai's mind is focused on how Macau feels under his scrutiny.

His kisses travel from the shoulder blade to the neck and all the way up to his ear. Macau is ticklish there. So he giggles and distances his head when Kai relentlessly kissing and sucking his ear.

He is still when Kai whispers, "God, I love you so much Macau Theerapanyakul! So much that it hurts sometimes."

Macau's lips slowly perform a smile. He tilts his head and meets Kai's lips with his in a gentle kiss. "I love you too, Eakasit Chaimongkon. I love you too."

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Nao is agitated. More than usual. He is usually at the edge on races, so his team isn't batting their eyes if he suddenly snaps or throws things in anger. But this agitation ... It's different.

He can't even focus on his car like usual. He just nods a long while his mind is directing himself to one point: Macau.

Now that Kai is here, what are they doing? Nao can't even catch a glimpse of him and he is standing on the outer side of his pit just for that purpose.