I keep the letters that I wrote to you in a secret place
The moments passed me by
Just like any other timeI played it out again today
With a friend of mine
Maybe because I was scared of standing alone when I already had her by sideI will keep on apologizing
Because that's the only thing that I am good at when it comes to usI know that's pathetic
Am pathetic
The whole situation is patheticI feel bitter
For having to offer you my apologies when I don't even knowIf I ever really cross your mind or occupy your thoughts like an old song
I know i have gone insane
Am pacing like mad madam
I don't know if you can see the chaos within my eyesWell, how would you know
If you can't even dare look at me
Am I disgusting to you
I doubt
Okay, but please stop making me doubtI wonder how you perceive me really
Goodness, I have really gone madJuly.R

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