Hate You

Ch. 4~ wAkE uP cALl

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It seems when I'm running from the world, it always comes to find me. No matter where I am, like a lover who's lost without the other half. It felt strange seeing it, for the first time I saw him angry. Panting out of breath, even with my vision a blur I can't unsee the look on his face.

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August 22nd

✨the trauma kids✨

1:23a icy_sae: anyone up? I need company.

1:25a get.em_kay: heyyyyy bestieeee, you know i'm up! What we talking? Party, kickback...?

1:28a icy_sae: whatever includes getting blasted.

1:30a duane_the_main: did someone say... blasted?

1:32a justt.soo: ooooooooooo where we going?

132a: icy_sae: hopefully to the nearest function

1:34a: duane_the_main: I can find something, I'll drop a meeting location

1:35a: icy_sae: if its far your coming to get me.

1:36a: duane_the_main: brat. Everyone in?

1:37a: yi.all.mines: yup <3

1:38a: wolf.boy.rae: definitely

1:38a: justt.soo: fuck yeah

1:39a: get.em_kay: liquourrrrr!!!

1:40a: hunter_x_dream: hmm let me think on it.

1:42a: playboy.lindsey: yesssss!!!! But Maya isn't going cause she's FUCKING L A M E

1:43a: know.it.all_maya: you know being inside for one night without melting and itching for more drinks is m a t u r i n g.

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Guess I fucking failed. While my father sped through empty streets to get home, I replayed their conversation in my head. It felt unreal for the moment, with a new discovery flavor I bought before going sober had began to hit me. The name was firecracker, it fizzle down to the explosive and lets loose a firework that spreads to cover up most of the sky as the name would suggest. I attempted to stop the creeping explosive high from surfacing through my eyes, he won't be happy to see that after leaving my support group. The silence weighed on us as we stopped at a red light at an intersection. Only a pill could help me configure a sentence to say to him. "Is it my fault? Am I the reason she cheated?"

"No, it was never your fault."

"Then why?" As per my mother's words, my older sister Ikaelia was the favorite of the both of us. She left home when she graduated high school, got her own place near her college, got her bachelors and now works for a big company. I don't see her often anymore, she's always working and only visiting on holidays. The child who achieved so much was treated like a star. Any event they could attend my mother would be there in a flash. But with me... my mother was no where to be found when I could feed myself. Cooked my own meals, kept up with my school life, graduated, she was no where to be found. She couldn't care less if I lived or died outside or in my own bed.