IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN (A Johnny Gaudreau Fanfic)

IT WILL HAPPEN (LAST)

A/N: Wow, lets all just take a deep breath. So part 13, the last part, we finally made it and I honestly don't have the words. Thank you so much to everyone who made this story apart of their lives, for using it as a way to connect with me, for reading and enjoying it. There is no greater gift for a writer than knowing that your words and stories mean something to someone else. So, I'm very lucky to be able to say I have people like you in my life, as my readers and more importantly as my friends. This story helped me meet and talk to so many amazing people as I'm very thankful for that. So, this is the last part unfortunately, but I promise there will be many more stories to come and so lets be happy as we end this one. Again, thank you to everyone who became a part of this story, enjoy, tell me what you think and know that I love you guys forever 😘💜

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I pulled in a deep sigh as I stared at myself in the mirror, finding long brown hair and tired eyes hiding behind glasses looking back at me. Tired eyes that couldn't face what had been done. And a girl with small shoulders and thin lips that ran away from all the good things in her life. A girl. Eleanor Findley, staring at herself in the mirror and feeling ashamed. There was never anything in my life that I was unsure about. I knew where I came from. What kind of family I belonged to. What was expected of me. I was sure of...well everything. But this time I was so disappointed, so unsure of what I done. What I'd left behind and kicked to curb when I rejected Johnny that day in my bedroom or when I kissed him back in his own. It all felt so far away and played in grainy movie clips in my mind, only there isn't a rewind button. It just keeps going. And I know that from now on, we will be strangers. Strangers that had once professed loved to each other, two people that had once made love, two people in love left to nothing. I sighed again. I knew time could heal everything, only this wound only felt fresher and fresher everyday. It felt new and raw with guilt and regret. I'd torn up an innocent heart, hurt the one person that loved me truly and I loathed myself.

I sighed again, reaching for the tube of lip-gloss and spread it evenly over my lips. It didn't matter now what I did. I only had to move on from this. I'd returned to my dorm just yesterday and after a day spent unpacking, I was doing something foolish today. I was going to a party. And though I should have, I didn't have tribulations about it. I wanted a night to destroy myself, my past, forget everything. I deserved it a little bit even. The more logical part of my brain however justified it as an obligation. I needed to go, it was my best friend and roommates birthday. I was already a horrible lover, I didn't need to add friend to that list as well. And maybe the cause of my calmness also was because I knew Johnny wouldn't be there, I'd heard from loose lips that he wasn't flying in until the day after tomorrow and that meant I had some time to think about how I was going to avoid him. We hadn't talked again during break, he hadn't called me and I hadn't had the dignity to call him. Instead I'd clutched my phone against my chest and cried realizing that his silence meant that it was over. For good this time. There was no more making up or more push and pull. He'd changed his mind about me forever and no amount of I love you's could change that. It wasn't like I didn't see it coming, sure I'd hoped the entire time that I was home my door bell would ring and by some miraculous stroke of luck he would be on the other side of the door. But that never happened and I knew that Johnny and I had become another 'what-if'. Another 'I guess it wasn't meant to be' and as much as I hated that realization, it was all I had left of him.

Hearing a knock on my doorjamb I blinked up at Sean leaning against the wall, staring at me expectantly.

"You coming? The party's already started," he whined, raising an eyebrow at me.

Running a hand shakily through my hair, I puffed, "Yeah I'll be there in a sec."
He nodded, but didn't leave. Instead he stepped closer and placed his hands on my shoulder. "I know it's hard right now, but I promise things will get easier, have hope. I know in time Johnny will forgive you and everything will go back to normal."