Taylor & Travis One Shots

i never stopped loving you

in this one shot, joe and ratty never happened.

anyways, this is probably the longest one shot i've ever written lol. it's around 3.4k words 😅
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Taylor's POV

A loud sob bursts through my lips as I collapse on the couch in my dressing room. My mom sits next to me and rubs my back as I pull my knees to my chest.

"I want him back, mom. I miss him so much and I can't do this without him." I say through my sobs and I wipe my eyes, but it's no use as the tears keep flowing.

"I'm sorry honey. I know you don't want to hear this, but it was for the best. You both drifted apart and it wasn't healthy."

I nod. "I still love him so much. I fought so hard to make things work, but it was like I fought alone."

Travis and I ended our three year relationship two weeks ago. It felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest and smashed into a million pieces. I miss and love him so much, but we were so toxic. The constant arguments, constant fights, sleeping in separate rooms, and the feeling that I'll never find true happiness.

Tonight is closing night of the Eras Tour. Travis was going to be here to cheer me on and come on stage after Karma. Not only was I going to give a speech on how much the tour changed my life, but he was going to give a speech on how the tour changed his life too. I initially had a suspicion he'd ask me to marry him, but I guess that dream is long gone.

"Mom, the fans are going to notice that Travis isn't here. He literally said last month in his podcast that he'd be here and that there will be a surprise in store. Now everyone is going to be disappointed and will hate me for getting their hopes up." I sniffle and wipe my eyes.

"Honey, no one is going to hate you. Obviously they'll be worried when they notice Travis isn't here, but they'll most likely assume something came up at the last minute. You're going to do amazing tonight. I promise things will get easier." My mom says as she rubs my back. I shake my head as I stand up and walk over to my chair and sit down so my makeup artist can get started.

"It won't get easier. He was the love of my life and the one I knew I'd spend my life with. Fuck, I still love him so much. I wish I did more to make things work and communicate better. I just want to stop talking about this for right now. I need to get in the right state of mind for tonight. After all, I can do it with a broken heart." I sniffle and my mom rubs my shoulder as my makeup artist continues making me look pretty.

About thirty minutes later, my makeup is done and Tree brings in the lover bodysuit I'm planning to wear tonight. I smile at her and take the bodysuit with me to the bathroom to change. After putting on the bodysuit and my boots, I take a look in the mirror and almost break down, but I force myself not to so I don't ruin my makeup. I walk back out and I smile at everyone, even though my smile doesn't quite reach my eyes.

Am I ready for the tour to be over? Honestly, no. I love performing and having the time of my life with my fans, but at the same time, I'm so ready for a break. I need to take time to unwind and relax. I was planning on fully moving in with Travis, but I guess I'll just be staying put in New York. Just me and my cats.

Tree snaps me out of my thoughts when she lays a hand on my shoulder. "Alright, Tay. You're on in less than five minutes. Let's head out."

I nod and we walk out of the dressing room and I climb into the cleaning cart. The sound of fans going crazy as we go past them almost makes me cry. I'm going to miss this so much.

Once we're backstage, I get handed my microphone and get hooked up to my earpieces. After one last hug from Tree, I head over to the lift and put on a brave face.