✩𝐆𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 - 𝐀 𝐬𝐨𝐛 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲✩

𝐕𝐈𝐈𝐈

Red's Pov.

I stare into the mirror i don't know if it's me or the mirror but something looks wrong. No matter the amount of makeup i seem to put on my face still looks wrong. No matter what outfit i put on i still feel ugly. I don't understand how Chloe finds me attractive.

I don't have the energy for this, i get back in bed.

"I'm so excited for our date tonight!" Chloe walks in excitedly.

Fuck, i forgot all about our date, and honestly i really don't want to go.

"Me too!" I say as happily as i can.

"I think you're gonna love where i'm taking you!" Chloe's practically bursting with excitement, and i love her and all but it's a bit off putting.

"Don't you have a sword and shields meeting?" I urge to get her out of the dorm, i just want to be alone.

"Oh yeah! Okay i'll be back in a couple hours!" She walks away cheerfully practically dancing down the hallways.

I look over at the clock beside my bed it reads three PM our date is at five. She hasn't told me where we're going, i know Chloe she better not surprise me with a trip to Wonderland or something.

I lay in my bed waiting for the hours to pass until atleast five thirty so i can get ready. Soon enough my alarm rings it's five. I get up, drag myself to the bathroom, stare in the mirror again, hate the way i stare back, then climb in the shower.

The hot water hits my body making my arms and legs sting. It feels almost good i don't know how to explain that. I wash my hair, the shampoo gets in my eyes, the conditioner falls to the floor of the shower. The water starts to turn cold, i turn the shower off and step out, the mirror is foggy, i love it, i hate seeing myself get out of the shower.

I'm not sure what i'm supposed to wear, i do know whatever it is there's going to be some kind of corset or waist trainer under it. I don't want Chloe to see me the way i see myself.

I end up going with just a simple pair of pants and an oversized shirt, along with the obvious corset pulled to the tightest it can go.

"Red! Are you ready?" Chloe walks in.

"Yeah, let's go" I grab Chloe's hand and let her lead me where she's already planed to go.

After walking for what felt like hours with Chloe dragging me behind her we finally reach her spot. It's the enchanted lake. There's already a picnic there for us with all my favourite foods.

Chloe seems so excited about it, she's so happy and i'm not, and i hate not being happy i really don't want to ruin her mood, but i also just can't bring myself to eat.

"Do you want to go swimming?" Chloe asks

"Red? Hey! Earth to Red" She snaps her fingers infront of me.

"What, sorry, i was admiring the trees, yeah the trees" I wasn't admiring the trees i was thinking about the amount of food that's sat in front of me that i'm not going to be able to eat.

"The trees? Okay, well do you want to go swimming?" She asked again.

"I didn't bring a bathing suit i didn't know where we were going, remember?" I reply, even if i did bring a bathing suit i am not going swimming. 

"Oh don't worry i brought one for you!" She pulls out two bathing suits from her bag.

Of course. Of course she would bring me one.

"Thank you so much i really appreciate your effort my love but i just don't really feel like swimming" I tell her as gently as i can trying not to hurt her feelings.

"Oh, well that's totally fine, why don't we eat then!" Chloe says picking up a donut and biting into it.

I pick up a small carrot and follow after her, biting into it.

"Are you okay Red? You seem a little off today" She asks me softly.

"Yeah i'm fine" I reply.

Chloe moves closer to me leaning her head on my shoulder.

"You're so beautiful" She says looking up at me.

"Thank you my love" My lips curl into a smile from her compliments.

Chloe starts so kiss my neck making her way to my lips.  "Is this okay?" She asks breaking her kiss for a second. "Yeah it's okay" I tell her kissing her back. Her soft hands travel my body, suddenly she stops.

"Why did you stop?" I ask desperately.

"Are you wearing a corset?" She asks feeling around my shirt.

"Yeah, what about it?" I defend.

"Nothing, i just feel like that's uncomfortable no? Usually corsets are a fancy thing or used as the shirt, not with another shirt on top" She responds.

I look away.

"Red what's wrong" She turns my face towards her. Still i avoid eye contact.

"I don't know i guess i just don't feel good about myself today, and i didn't want to cancel the date that you obviously worked so hard on" My eyes start to tear up.

"Oh, Red, you're so beautiful sweet girl" She comforts.

" I just don't want you to see me the way i see myself, i don't even understand how you find me attractive, i'm so ugly Chloe" I cry.

"Red, don't speak like that about yourself, you are so beautiful, the most beautiful girl i've ever laid my eyes on" She coos.

"Thank you i appreciate it, it's just so hard when all i've ever known is my mom telling me i never looked good enough, either i wasn't skinny enough, or i didn't look respectable" I wipe my tears.

"She would just constantly make me throw up my food, or not let me eat at all. She would make me weigh myself and if i was anything over what i was supposed to be i couldn't eat for the next few days" I continue. My tears falling once again.

"Oh Red i'm so sorry, i know that's so hard for you, but your mom isn't here my girl, she can't tell you what to do anymore, and i love you for you" Chloe is now wiping my tears.

"Thank you" I mutter.

My eyes feel heavy and soon i find myself falling into my girlfriend's lap her hand playing with my hair, and whiling the left over mascara from under eyes.

I feel myself start to fall asleep, under these stars, Chloe right there with me.

"You are so beautiful" Is the last thing i hear before i fall asleep.

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So this one was very topic heavy.. sorry about that, and the ending was. bit rushed but because i put out today's chapter yesterday i had to get one written for today.

Sorry for any errors i did a brief read through

And as always if u have any ideas u can comment then and i'll try and incorporate them in a future chapter.