Haikyuu Oneshots

Everyone I've Loved - Iwaoi

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‼️suggestions of su1c1d3‼️

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"In a room full of everyone you've loved, who would you go to?"

I remember the very first time I was asked this. It was during a sleepover at Makki's place with the remaining third years from Aoba Johsai. It was a random question but it did keep things interesting so I guess it really got me thinking.

If I'm honest with myself, I've had many girlfriends, none as pretty and amazing as me of course, but they were there. When I think of these girls however, I don't think I ever loved them?

Well actually, let me rephrase that. I know for a fact that I loved only 2 of those girlfriends, the rest I never loved.

But in a room filled of everyone I've ever loved, there would be three people, not two. I think that's a curse for me.

I'm still not over that third person, and if I was in a room with everyone I've ever loved, I'd go to my Iwa-chan in an instant, without giving it a second thought.

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The very first time I realized I liked boys and girls was in 5th grade. It was around the time where me and Iwa-chan started to hang out a lot more. He was my awakening. I knew I still liked girls though.

My first girlfriend was in middle school, her name was Sakura. She was the first girl I've ever truly loved more than anything in the world, but of course it didn't last long. We were in middle school and I was still in love with my best friend. But I did love her. She was an amazing person, sweet, caring, kind, and trustworthy. I really did love her. She has long brown hair which curled at the ends and the prettiest blue eyes I've ever seen. She was amazing, but she was no Iwa-chan. I had to let her go. I couldn't hurt her and I knew she was too good for me.

My second girlfriend was Kyou. She was very lovely. I started dating her in high school. She again was the second one I've ever loved. She had short black hair and blue eyes. They were pretty but not prettier than Sakuras, but that's not the point. The point is that I fell in love with the person she was. She gave money to the poor, always worried about others, would constantly buy others food when they were hungry, even if she didn't have enough for herself. She was perfect. She knew how to cook and clean, but then again, she was no Sakura and was no Iwaizumi Hajime. She was all too good for me. She deserved someone who will love her unconditionally, no matter the circumstances and who isn't in love with their best friend. I loved her with my heart but it wasn't enough to keep her around and I was NOT going to hurt her.

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The moment I knew I was into guys, I felt that my world was ending but I'm glad it didn't. It was fifth grade, me and Iwa-chan were playing volleyball outside and I tripped over a rock. He quickly rushed over and helped me up. He noticed my shoes were untied so he tied them for me.

Iwa-chan likes to act cold, but in all honesty, I don't think I've ever been more cared by, at least not as much as he cared about me, from anyone else. Whenever I was sick, he'd make me chicken soup and bring it to me. He'd buy me milk bread to make me feel better and he always knew what to do to make me feel happy.

When I injured my knee, he would come to my house and do some weird exercises so that my knee would heal better and faster. He would also bring movies, especially the E.T movie which I loved so much, and he would watch it with me while we laid in bed.