Insane 《》Hyunlix (1)

Prequel

  (Hii Rose here,so this is actually in ghe book 'Redo' which is the original universe of this book which is like the less dramatic/no psych ward version of the story so aka less dark. But I thought I would post this just in case for the people who haven't read 'Redo' yet and so you don't have to jump around-8/13/24)

◆•Hyunjin's Pov•◆
5 years after the break up
I walk to the back of the planetarium where I last saw Felix leave to. I knock on the door "Lix. Are you alright?" I couldn't hear anything which worries me. I knock on the door again more rapidly as my anxiety gets worse. This isn't good.

I heard from Chan that he was kinda depressed since the break up but it wouldn't be a lie if I was as well. We are each other's life force. Like magnets. Not to be seperated.

Blood slowly reaches my foot. Damn it, it better not be what I think just happening. Felix has such a fragile soul and his dad never got much better even after we broke up.

I kick the door hard over and over even though it hurts, I won't give up until this door comes down. I will pay those fees even if I have to work day and night to pay them back.

The door finally comes down as Felix eyes were flittering up and down as the color and life was draining out of him. I look around his body looking for where the blood is. "SOMEONE HELP HIM. CALL 911 QUICKLY" I scream over and over as I kneel down in the puddle of blood picking him up in my arms.

His breathing was faint but still there. His eyes were hazy as he looks at me. Felix doesn't have much longer if they are able to save him. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst.

He reaches up the my face as the blood is still pouring out of his wrist. Why did he have to resort to this. Chan and me could have gotten him some help even though he never wants me around.

I can't stand there while he suffers. Tears try so hard to escape my eyes as he says "I will always love you Hyunjin. I was just more betrayed that you would do that kind of thing. I will never hate you because I love you too much."

The ambulance finally came as they take him from me wheeling him quickly into the ambulance. Chan runs over to me as it must have reached to the news some how or something.

"Hyunjin, what happened?" He looks at me as I just finally snap like a twig as tear falls rapidly down my cheeks.

Chan hugs me as I wrap my arms around him tight as I cry harder. "Felix tried to commit suicide. I'm afraid that it's too late. There are so many things that I wish I could have done with him. I want a redo, I want him to be happy again. That's all I ever want in life, is for him to be happy."

Chan helps me off of the bloody floor as we walk out of the bathroom and he gets me into his car and drives to the hospital.

I pulled myself together for the drive as the last thing I need to do is make him worry. Thats if he allows me to see him. Because he knows if he does live, then he will be hearing and seeing me alot more.

We walk inside the ER that is full of sick and hurt people. But I didn't mind as all my thoughts are filled with 'Is he alright?' And 'What if he didn't make it?'

"We are here to see Lee Yongbok." Chan had no clue of what his korean name so I had to say it as little did I know that it would be the last time that I would say his name.

"Lee Yongbok.." the nurse looks through her computer as she sighs. I don't like the sound of that. "The doctor will come to see you in a moment." She picks up her walkie talkie "Dr. Lee M. Please come here for a moment."

A man with dark brown hair and the darkest brown eyes like Lix's comes up to me. "Hello I am Dr. Lee Minho, the Psych ward head director of the floor. They thought it was better for me to tell you." He looks into Chan's eyes then in mine with such sorrow.

"To tell you the truth, Lee Yongbok died before he hit the roadways. They took him out of the room for you so you didn't have to go through the trama of seeing him in a body bag"

Chan wipes his tears "Blood loss I'm assuming" The doctor nods as he points at his veins. Damn it, if I didn't wait those minutes before I followed him, would he still be with us now.

My knees felt weak as I fell to the ground as everything went silent as I processed this all. If I knew this would happen, I would have made things lasted longer. I just wish I got to say goodbye. To let him know how much I love him.

                ♠︎○Chan's Pov○♠︎

It's been a week since Felix's death. Hyunjin is now in a mental asylum as both Dr.Lee and I thought it would be for the best to keep him under observation as he wouldn't respond to anyone but me at this point. It was supposed to be a temporary thing, however I figured he wasn't safe alone anymore ever since he attempted claiming he wanted to see Felix again.

His eyes were distant last time I saw him. I hope he is doing better now. I walk into his padded cell where he is now in a straight jacket staring down at the floor. He perks up when he sees me as he looks at me in the eyes.

"Chan good news, Felix and I worked things out again." His voice was full of hope and optimistic as he spoke looking up at me. I could tell he isn't fully here. I holler for Dr.Lee M.

"Yes?"

"What's wrong with him? He's talking about Felix but we both know the truth" Hyunjin looks at me dead in the eyes even though he knew what I was saying.

"No, Felix and I just had the best vacation that he planned for us. I just didn't tell you because I didn't know how you would react."

The doctor pulls me into the hallway shutting the door behind him. "Hwang Hyunjin had a mental breakdown after a while because he couldn't accept it. Major PTSD and a few other things. Or at least from what I saw in his charts. But he sees things in his mind of the what ifs and he believes it was real. We hear him talk to himself all the time but there's nothing that has worked."

Poor Hyunjin, he is forever stuck in a illusions that he can't break out of unless he accepts the fact of it. A doctor passes me by that looked just like Felix but with brown hair?

Dr. Lee Y. No, this can't be true. Until I saw the scars on his arms as his doctor coat sleeves is pulled up. What is happening?