Fatima Taylor
"Oh my god! Karter baby."I said as me,Zac, and Micheal rushed in.
"Is she in any pain?"Zac asked the doctor as he cried.
"No sir."He said giving Karter a water bottle with a straw as she drunk it.
"Karter...I'm so sorry princess."I said lowly as a tear rolled down her cheek.
"Don't cry baby it's not your fault. Nothings your fault."I said in disbelief holding her hand.
"I'm sorry mama..."She said as I cried harder.
"Daddy"She said as Zac came to her immediately .
"It's okay baby girl I got you now...we got you okay? I'm so sorry."Zac said
"I hate to interrupt but Mrs. And Mr. Taylor I hope you understand that since Karter has now woken up to what seems to be a miracle we do want to continue running test on her to make sure she's completely okay..."The doctor said
"But?"I said
"We do have to treat her like any other patient and put her on suicide watch."She said as I shook my head.
"I don't want y'all treating her like she's a risk. She's already been through enough."I said as Karter looked down.
"Mrs Taylor we have to look at this from a professional point of view and to assess Karter's mental health and risk factors we have to insure her safety even if it's against herself. Any hospital you go to will tell you that in Karter's case it's too severe not to put her on watch."She said
"Can we at least spend time with her before you start those measures?"Zac said as the doctor nodded walking out as Micheal moved out the way.
"I-I didn't want to die you know? I just wanted it to stop...just for a minute... I wanted you to see me...to help me."Karter said as I felt horrible as a mother.I didn't even have anything to say.
"We're going to get you some help Karter...We're going to do better. I'm so sorry."Zac said as Karter looked down shaking her head.
"You're still not getting it...it's too late.Everything's going to be different now...you'll see. And it's all going to be because of me...It'd be better if it worked. "she said
"Karter don't say that. Don't talk like that."I said
"It's true. You don't think I thought about it before I did it? I wasn't scared mama...I was just worried for you...for everyone...your reactions. It's going to start with y'all fighting if it hasn't already. It's a domino effect. Y'all say y'all are just going to do better but in reality you'll just treat me like I'm fragile. Like I'm broken. "she said
"Karter..."
"It's okay...I made my bed I'll deal with it.."She said sadly.
"Karter despite what you make think we love you so much. And this is not what we want for you...what we wanted for you. I cannot imagine a life without you in it. My life without you in it. I know because I got a taste of it and I've never wanted you more than anything. Karter I needed you and you came exactly into my life the moment I needed you not when I wanted you. Because truth be told I've wanted you for a long time. And when I first held you I knew that you'd make me proud. That you'd have something to show for the life that was given to you. It was glowing inside you. It was already instilled in you...I just had to guide and help you be that. But to my mistake I was so adamant on you having every tool and that you had everything you needed I let up. I stopped thinking you needed me...And for that I am so sorry Karter . But I will not let you sit here and basically tell me tell us that id be better off if you were dead. Because that's just not true. Your wanted. Your needed. And your loved. I just hope that you see that yourself. Because I learn from my mistakes and I won't make it twice. So when I tell you that im going to do right by you and do better I mean it. Because I love you Karter, so much. We love you."I said crying as got up not wanting to break down. "Excuse me."I said walking out as Zac followed me. I broke down in the hall way.
"Oh god."I said trying to breathe as I held my chest.
__________
Karter Taylor
"How you feeling right now?"micheal said trying to change the subject after a few minutes of silence.Im glad because I was definitely starting to feel bad.I didn't want everyone sad for me. Because of me. It's not fair to them.
"Like you're definitely going to have a girl..."I said as he looked up at me immediately with a sad smile.
"You heard me?"He said as I nodded.
"I heard everything..."Which reminded me I was going to have to follow up on a lot of conversations. I also had a lot of catching up to do. Plus I really needed to talk to star.
"Have you told them yet?"I asked really about everything that he had going on. Especially him going to Colorado and the baby.
"No. I wanted you to know first...I didn't know if you could hear me and I had hope that you were going to wake up."He said as I felt sad.
"I missed you Kay."He said
"I missed you too Mikey."I said calling him a nickname I know he hated.
"Wow. I can't wait till you get better."He said as we laughed.
"Me neither. I gotta reteach you how to catch you've definitely lost your game."I said
"Only cause I didn't have my number one cheerleader around. Gotta spare me some."He said shrugging.
"Ouch that hurt."I said smiling.
