The contractions had become more painful for each hour I spent on them, and I felt bad for my sweet Wooyoung who took all my yelling with the biggest smile on his face. I knew this all excited him, making me even more irritated in the moment. It had been some rough months so equally as exhausted and in pain I was, I was also scared. Looking at the clothes that I had packed, Wooyoung turned his head as he heard my sobs. "Baby, Baby, shh, what's going on?" He rushes to me as he wraps me in a tight hug, caressing the top of my head. "I'm so scared anything goes wrong Woo and the baby gets hurt. You would never forgive me. I will never forgive myself." I started renting, knowing a lot of my worries were unnecessary and probably in lack of sleep. "We are having a perfect baby in a couple of hours, i promise you" He said, kissing the crown of my hair as he held me till i calmed down. "You are the strongest woman that exists on this earth and I'm so excited to see you as a mother and I'm so excited to be the father of your child" He continued.
Hours went by, and with my last push as I went into labor I gave birth and as I heard the baby cry, I felt as if I could finally breathe again. "Congratulations mom and dad, it's a girl" the midwife said and as she said those words my eyes flew to Wooyoung who had the biggest smile on his lips, the most shining eyes and i knew how happy he felt right there. "I can't believe it" He said, barely able to talk through his smile and when i saw tears fall from his eyes i started crying myself. Wooyoung got handed the baby and came to me, placing her on my chest. "Look princess, this is your mother" He said, tears still falling from his eyes. "I can't believe this," He said again, looking at our baby girl in awe. I looked at her, and she had his pretty eyes. "Woo, she has your eyes" I pointed out and as he came to look they locked eyes and the baby curled its mouth as if it made a kiss out for Wooyoung. We both laughed as he gave her and me a kiss. "You have single handed made me the most happy man in the entire world today, Sarah. I don't know how i will ever be able to pay you forward but i promise to be the best father in the entire world for our baby" He said, looking me in the eyes very seriously. "Seeing you this happy makes every single contraction worth it Woo, there is nothing to pay forward" I said, kissing his forehead. "Let me get our princess dressed and then we will be back, Mom" He said, leaning the baby's head towards my mouth so I could give her a kiss as he picked her up and left for the bathroom. They came back shortly after but he came in with a finger over his mouth, signaling for me to be quiet as he placed her in her crib. "We were just talking and then she fell asleep" He whispered, pouting. "Now I have to wait for her to wake up again" he continued in his pout, making me laugh. "Lets take a look at your postpartum journal then baby" He said, picking it out of the bag. "I can write if you just tell me what to write" He continued as he turned to the first page. "Okay. the first thing is: Today I felt" He started, and I had to continue the sentence. "A lot of things. But most of all, the thing that is most important right now, is appreciation" I said, and his eyes met mine. "You have been absolutely a dream to have with me today Woo, it would never have gone by this smoothly without you to keep me calm" I said, making him smile again. "You have given me the biggest gift in the entire world, i'm the one who should be grateful" He said, as he started to write what i said. "Next one is: i felt the most happy when" "When i saw that she had your eyes" I answered, as he wrote down what i said with another smile on his lips. We continued on, until crying pulled us out of our writing and Wooyoung hurried to pick his daughter up. "Hi princess. I missed you" He said, big smile, as he placed her on my chest and i looked into the calm beautiful eyes of my daughter again. "I think i have to quit" He says blankly. "I cant leave this, how is it ever going to be possible to be without the two of you ever again?" He asked, as we laughed together.
