Braking Hearts

Chapter Ten

KANDY KANE

MONDAY

I hated Nara for forcing me to join this stupid dating app after she noticed me watching 'fifty shades of grey' when she came to drop a few things over. And now I'm sitting in my bed, looking through the friends list they suggested for me. My knees against my chest, the bedsheets covering my feet as I continue swiping. With my fake name being Alissa Can, which Nara came up with.

All until a new friend popped up on my screen.

Noah Reynolds. 35. Wants to be friends!

This is so stupid, what am I doing? Just accept it, but I can't. This is wrong. I'm not looking for a relationship, I'm too busy working here. Fuck it. I press accept, the screen changes to a chat. I'm not even looking for a relationship, just someone I can get off with. Right? Can I even do that as a virgin?

You have just started a chat with Noah!

Three dots begin bouncing, and here we start.

N: Hey.

Shit. That was quick. I would've expected for him to wait for me, but clearly not.

A: hi.

R: first time on this app?

I smirk.

A: yeah first time, my friend forced me to download this. You?

R: we must have the same group of friends. I was forced too. Caught jerking off in the bathroom.

I laugh, shaking my head.

A: been single for long?

R: Around five years now, you?

Shit. Should I lie? I've never been in a relationship. I'm a virgin. I've never done stuff like that. Maybe this is wrong. Maybe I should lie. No, he doesn't know you. This is blind dating- texting.

A: never been in a relationship before acc

N: no way. But you've done other things right?

My jaw tightens slightly.

A: never. I'm a virgin.

He takes a moment to respond. Shit. He's definitely going to end this chat. I know he is. Who wants someone who isn't experienced? I wouldn't.

N: is it a waiting for marriage type of thing?

A: No, just haven't found the right person I guess.

N: oh.
N: to be with or to teach you?

Butterflies swarm my stomach for some odd reason.

A: are you willing to become a teacher?

That was to brave. Let me delete that before he see's, but my luck was shit, and the message was seen before I could even press down onto it.

N: are you a good learner?

A: I'm a very dedicated student, sir.

Let me just have fun here, he doesn't know me, what's the worst that could happen?

N: fuck.
N: have you ever touched yourself before?

A: never.

N: are you ready for a lesson?

I hesitate.

This is supposed to be blind sexting. This is how it works, so then why am I nervous? Why are my hands shaking?