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my favorite day. a lazy day.

im currently snuggled on the couch with christopher wedged against my side, one of his favorite cartoons playing on the tv.

eddie has taken it upon himself to start thinking of themes for the baby's nursery.

"what about space?" he offers, his brows furrowing.

"baby, we dont know the gender." i chuckle softly. "why dont we stick with a gender neutral color or only focus on the furniture now?"

"well, if we buy the furniture now, it can only go in the nursery. that means it has to be taken out so we can paint it." he sighs.

"when can i find out if im gonna have a baby sister or baby brother?" christopher asks sleepily.

as of today, i am 13 weeks. ive had the occasional morning sickness, but truly the only symptom ive had that impacts my daily life would be cravings.

"we can find out in a few weeks, buddy." i mutter, combing his hair out of his eyes.

"i think i want a baby sister," he admits. "ill be there to protect her."

"yes you will, chris. you will be the best big brother. where you get a sister or a brother." eddie smiles, standing from his spot on the chair and pressing a soft kiss to chris's head.

he leans down to kiss me sweetly, his palm going to rest on my belly.

"come on chris, lets get you to marvin's. ill be back in a few minutes." chris nods and pulls himself off the couch, not before hugging me one last time and whispering a sweet goodbye to his sibling in my belly.

"im going to clean up and take a shower while youre gone. i love you, boys!" i call out as i stand, stretching my stiff body. they both yell out their 'love you's and i smile to myself.

making quick work of picking up any stray items and putting then where they belong, wiping down surfaces, and doing the dishes, i let out a breath.

i make my way into the bathroom and turn the water on, letting it warn up as i strip my clothes.

i catch a glimpse of my belly in the mirror and still.

its almost as if i popped randomly. this morning, there was only a tiny bump, one that could pass as bloating.

but now? its obvious that im pregnant. i place my hand on my belly and smile.

i still cant believe it. its so crazy to me that in six months, we will have a baby.

i never imagined this for myself after matt. i always assumed that i would be too scared to let another man get close. not to mention, being told i wouldnt be able to have a baby.

the bathroom door opens and eddie peaks his head in.

"room for one more?" he says with a grin. he notices what im looking at and he chuckles, stepping in and shutting the door.

"look," i grin, turning to the side to allow him to see my bump. his face lights up and he slips behind me, resting his hands on my belly.

"im so excited." he whispers in my ear. i hum in response, leaning my head back on his shoulder.

"me too,"

i press my lips to his softly, giggling as he wiggles his fingers against my sides.

"seriously, though, room for one more?" he mutters, kissing his way up my neck. i roll my eyes and laugh.

"i suppose we could make room." i mumble, pressing a kiss to his temple.

he grins and steps aside to turn the water on, letting it heat up before stripping his clothes. he helps me into the shower, placing his hands on my hips as i step in.

i turn back and grab his hand, returning the favor.

"you first," he says, more to himself than to me.

he taps my hip and i take a step back, landing right under the hot water. i hum as the water strums against my back, relaxing my muscles.

eddie is silent as he opens my shampoo and squirts a bit into his hand. with his clean hand, he ensures my hair is wet before lathering the soap into my hair.

i groan softly as his fingertips run through my hair, almost lulling me to sleep. reaching out blindly, i wrap my arms around eddies hips, soaking in this alone time.

he takes his time rinsing out the shampoo before moving to apply conditioner to my ends. i rest my forehead on his shoulder, littering gentle kisses along his skin.

he lets the conditioner set in my hair as he washes my body with care. he runs the loofa up my leg, pressing a featherlike kiss to the scar there. he repeats the same action with my other leg before moving to my stomach.

he presses one kiss to the scar there, too, before pressing another one to the center of my belly.

"youre as big as a peach today. i cant believe youre growing so fast. you cant hear me just yet, but know that we are so excited to meet you, pumpkin." he whispers.

i hum happily as he continues to wash my body, making his way back up to my face.

"hi," he says, a cheeky smile on his face.

"hi, baby." i laugh as i wrap my arms around his neck.

"i love you." he places his lips on mine in a soft kiss.