Is love really an illusion?(A gustholomule story)

Not again-

Matt's POV

I woke up and noticed yet again I'm snuggling up to Gus,why does this keep happening??? Nonetheless I am comfortable but extremely embarrassed.i look up to Gus' face to check if he's asleep because I'm always sliding off my pillow whenever I sleep and whenever I am sleeping over at Gus' house I seem to start hugging him.

By no means am I a hugger when I had sleepovers with Bria and her friends I didn't go near them while I slept.To be honest I kept to myself at those sleepovers,barely even engaging with them when I'm awake.

I don't get why I'm so attached to Gus I mean I don't mind him hugging me back right now,I feel safe and secure. But there's always that lingering thought that he pitys me and doesn't actually like me, which could be a hard pill to swallow if it's true..

Back in glandis everyone though I was weak because I couldn't use construction for attacks but instead for defense and to make art this always bugged me because in the glandis hierarchy the strongest prevail but the term strong is only used for attacks.For example of someone excelled at illusions like Gus they wouldn't get treated like the other strong students.Which I was forced to believe for a while,to believe that illusions are high def party tricks that won't get you anywhere.

But it realized illusions are amazing and beautiful they can be used for.so many things the can be used to confuse your opponent or for you to make something truly amazing!
Gus has saved people through illusions countless times like when he saved me from the detention pit ,helped me get rid of Bria AND saved edric from getting a sigil.
Infact Gus is so powerful they tried forcing him to do another kind of magic by giving him an abomination sigil!

To be honest I don't know how I feel about Gus,I noticed I talk very highly of him and talk about him a lot.
I'm not saying that I wouldn't want to date him what I'm saying is I'm scared he will think I'm not good enough for him.There is nothing wrong with being gay I have know that for all my life but what if Gus picked up some stuff in the human realm that makes him think dating a guy isn't right or okay??
I know he went to the human realm like a year and a half ago but I'm still scared , a lot of stuff could've happened and sim not saying humans suck because that Luz girl is pretty nice and has a girlfriend herself but one nice human isn't really the equivalent of all of humanity after finding out everything about belos I know there's bad humans and I know I'll need to be cautious if I go to the human realm.
To be honest I wouldn't want to go to the human realm if I'm not with Gus..

A/N
IM BACKKK school starts up in like two weeks so that's cool to be honest I'm not excited but I might as well get it over with also 1.74K READS IS INSANE also if your okay with it how do you feel about shorter chapters it'll mean I could get the motivation to post more often instead of forcing myself to write 1000-2000 words  so iw as thinking maybe chapters that are around 500-800 words ?