I am valid
I know I'm valid, but I still haven't internalised it yet
My autism is valid
My ADHD is valid
My DID is valid
My cocsa experience is valid
What happened with the guy across the street is valid
My trauma is valid
My feelings are valid
My experience with mental health, self harm and addiction is valid
Whenever I tic while actively suppressing, I'm still valid
I keep unintentionally convincing myself that I'm not valid, that I'm making things up for attention, but I don't want attention, I just want to unmask.
Every time my mum brings up the fact that I react to things differently or I do things differently or I act differently, I keep forgetting to a tually tell her that I'm working on unmasking
Of course I'm gonna act differently if the way I was before was a mask, it wasn't me!!
I've been impersonating this character I made up as a mask, but now I'm slowly starting to act like the real me and it's the most freeing and terrifying experience I've ever had
And I both love and hate every second of it.
I've been letting myself stim more, both verbally and physically
I've been letting myself act how I want to instead of how "Ritsby" would
Existing is so incredibly tiring but I'm getting through each day
Even if I'm barely eating anything...
ANYWAY let's not dwell on that shall we
Hehe
Hmm
Uhh
Anyway
Luv ya <3 /p
Fuzz, out :3
YOU ARE READING
vent but kinda poetic sometimes?
Poetrywanna read a 15 yo's vents? this will probs include swearing, descriptions of stuff including blood and gore, talk about my mental illnesses, me being a gay lil man, agere, xenogenders, neopronouns, nurodivergencies, therian stuff, otherkin stuff, f...
