The Campus Queen Bee That Used To Be Us

Chapter 7

Why would she play with my feelings like that?

♕

I can't believe this. Did I just get my first ever kiss? I can't! My smile wouldn't fade off on the way home. I feel so liberated! I rushed my way up the stairs and went to my room, still giggling and all, as I fell onto my bed.

I wanna scream so loud, but I can't. Hinawakan ko ang aking labi at naalala ko agad ang feeling kanina! AHHHH! Why is this happening to me?

I spent the night daydreaming about what happened. I can't sleep, and then I got an idea. I opened my phone, went back to bed and browsed the web to search for those spicy manhwas.

Antagal ko na ring hindi nakabasa ng mga ganito. There was a time last, last year that I got so addicted to reading these. But then, I realized that this doesn't represent the queer community at all, it's like these are made just for romanticization and all, but it doesn't necessarily highlight the struggles of every queer person. But tonight is an exception, I guess! I couldn't help it. They really put their A-game into making these characters have this unrealistic beauty. Hope they put they're A-game too in writing better storylines that don't include violence and other crime-like plots. I just wanna read this kind of stuff again.

And that's what I did. I spent the night, morning, afternoon, and evening finishing these hundreds of chapters. Ugh. I should stop. Thank God, I did.

I just woke up. Monday morning got me feeling excited about getting ready. I did my everything shower again and made sure I looked my best.

Tiningnan ko ang sarili sa reflection ng salamin. I think I'm ugly most days, but there are times that I feel cute too, and I think today is that day. There's nothing special about my features, just the typicalness of it all. Nothing new, nothing mezmerizing. I feel like my features don't have that harmony. I just shrugged it off.

On the way to Livington, there's only one I could think about. I can't wait to see Ken! Crush ko na talaga siya. Noong una ay nagagawapuhan lang aako sa kanya, but after that kiss? Sinong hindi mahuhulog? Ugh. Sana maulit today. Kidding!

Wearing my smile and hugging the two straps of my bad with both my hands, tinungo ko na ang aming classroom. Leanne and Rhian are already there, doing their makeup.

"Hi, Sive!" Rhian greeted me.

"Hello, good morning!" masayang bati ko pabalik at umupo na sa aking chair.

"You look different today, ganyan ba kapag nagkaroon na ng first kiss?" Leanne suddenly teased.

"In love ka na ba?" gatong pa ni Rhian.

I chuckled. "Hala, hindi, ah! Wala na nga 'yun sa'kin!"

Nakahinga na ako nanag maluwag when they stopped na. The discussions continue with our first two subjects. Muntikan ko nang hindi maipasa 'yung quiz pero buti nalang ay naalala ko 'yung sagot. Ugh. I'm distracted!

I'm tense while eating my fries in cafeteria. It's already break time. Nakikinig lang ako sa usapan nina Leanne habang lumilingon-lingon sa palaigid. Wala pa kasi si Ken. Nasaan na kaya siya?

"God, ang tagal ng order ko!" reklamo ni Leanne.

"Uhm, gusto mo?" Inalok ko muna sa kanya ang fries.

She looked at me in disgust. What did I do?

"Uhm, Leanne can't eat that. It's high in testosterone!" Rhian bumped that look.

"Oh, sorry, hindi ko alam!" Napakamot ako sa ulo at binawi ang alok.