The Campus Queen Bee That Used To Be Us

Chapter 12

She's my friend

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It felt so good to have no awareness of time. Na kahit anong oras akong matulog ay ayaos lang dahil wala na akong poproblemahin pa! Hawak ko na ang aking oras since our holiday break started.

These past few days, I did nothing but rest and rot in bed, watching and reading all the media I could ever think of. I missed it so much. But, I kind of feel bad na, so after checking the time, initapon ko na somewhere ang king phone para hindi ko na ito magamit pa.

I wanna have a productive day this time. I'll try. Bumangon na ako at nagtungo sa bathroom to do my morning routine, and that includes showering. It's so relaxing and refreshing that I started to sing random songs. Ah, this is life.

Hindi ko na namalayan ang oras and it's already 10 a.m. after I finished everything. Lumabas na ko ng kwarto at bumaba ng hagdan when I accidentally stepped on the wrong way that made me instantly out of balance! I even shouted sa gulat pero napigilan ko agad dahil baka marinig ni Mom ang pagtili ko. Nakakhiya! Thankfully, nakahawak agad ako sa railings kaya hindi ako tuluyang dumausdos!

"Breakfast na, may tinapay d'yan!" Mom said to me while she's busy cooking something. Probably our lunch.

"Hindi na po, ma."

I still skipped breakfast since cover siya ng sixteen-hour food restiction ko. This really feels so hard. Ang hirap makapag-focus minsan kapag walang kain, and I have no choice but to endure it 'cause I have to. For that body. For that flat stomach body.

Nagpatuloy ako sa paglalakad hanggang sa makarating ng sala. Napaubo ako nang makalanghap bigla ng usok na galing sa sigarilyo. There, I shockedly saw dad on his laptop and making air pollution. Mukhang wala siyang trabaho ngayon.

Umupo ako sa kabilang gilid ng sof. Kinuha ko nag-remote at binuksan ang TV to watch some shows. I miss watching TV, so here I am. Gusto ko sana manood ng Drag Race but I feel it'll send my dad to coma. I just stuck out a trending TV show.

"Tanginang bakla 'yan, ilipit mo 'yan!" Dad suddenly said out of nowhere when a feminine gay appeared on TV.

I was there, frozen, hearing it. I didn't know what to do. I knew he would say something like that, but I'm still shocked. Agad kong kinuha ang remote and immidetely swicth it so some cartoons.

"Wag kang manood ng mga gano'n kung ayaw mong matulad sa kanila. Tandaan mo 'yan, anak. 'Wag kang babakla-bakla."

"Opo..." I said reluctantly at napa-salumbaba.

Nawalan na ak onang gana manood. Pinalipas ko muna na matapos nag isang episode bago tuluyang umkayt mula sa kwarto. Nakakahina marinig ang sarili kong ama na gano'n. Ang hirap, sobra. Ang bigat sa pakiramdam. Nakakatakot. Natatakot ako para sa sarili ko.

Nagtungo ako sa salamin at tinitigan ang repleksyon. Ano nalang kaya ang masasabi niya kapag nalaman niyang may anak siyang bakla? Hindi ko alam. Ayokong malaman.

To shrug it off, naisipan ko nalang na maglaro ng isang Roblox sa laptop. Ever since that traumatic incident with her on this game, nahirapan na ako muling maglaro, but I'll try again. I clicked on one of those games na mayroong voicechat where I'd be paired with some random players. I instantly got paired up with a random player with a guy avatar.

"Hello!" I greeted politely.

[Tangina, bading na naman!] Nagulat ako sa galit na tono ng kanyang boses.

Bago pa man ako makasagot ay he immediately skipped me na. Nakakainis, hindi ko man lang na-report! What's wrong with him? Natawa nalang ako.

Nang marinig ang pagtawag ni Mom ay bumaba na ulit ako at umupo na sa hapaagkainan with them. They're talking about the political and economic state of the world or something close to that habang tahimik lang ako at kumakain.