Anuseena ----- Fire

15: The girl Talk

Almost finished fic:

One more thing I'm not a medical expert. Whatever I'm writing, is writing from my own experience as a mother. I wanted to show Haseena's emotion as a mother. Somehow whenever I write Haseena's hate towards Anubhav, it is more like Haseena as a mother hate towards him instead of Haseena as a girlfriend or lover.

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Flashback

Should she abort it?

There was no future for them together.. What about the child whose father didn't want it?

What should she do?

To have an unwanted child just for the sake of some moment.

But... No matter how much she was in delimma or hurt, she couldn't regret the moments she had spent with HIM.

She went to sonography with the same delimma and that time when she had saw that little dot, she fell in love again.

With her child. It filled her heart with a hope and love.
She was not going to lose it at any cost.

But she had lost it.

It was around two weeks after her first check up. She was feeling a constant abdomen pain and there was blood spotting as well. She had read that sometimes women had spotting during their pregnancy. Beside she was busy with some case, so she left the matter.

After a week when her pain started to severe she went to the doctor.

Doctor told her lay down as for scanning.
She noticed doctor's expression changed.

Haseena: "doctor sub thek hai naa? Humara bacha thek hai?" There was a fear in her tone.

Doctor: "Apke Bache ki na hi movement aa Rahi hai aur na hi Dil ki dharkan aa Rahi hai."

Haseena was still hopeful: "Matlab doctor? Wapis aa jae gi naa?"

Doctor: "kabhi kabhar aisa hota hai k Kuch dair k Liye Bache ki movement ya phir dharkan nahi aati. Phir aa jati hai. Ap ek Kam karain, yahi laiti rahe. Main Kuch minutes k bad dobara check karti hun."

She nodded and stayed there with a fear in her heart.

After few minutes, it was the same result.

Doctor sighed and told her: "miss Haseena, mujhe afsos se kahna par Raha hai k apka bacha pet main hi mar gea hai."

She suddenly got up: "aisa nahi hai."

Doctor shook her head: "kaash aisa ho sakta mgr aisa hi hai. Ap mere sath aaiye."

She went to there and sat in front of her.

Doctor: "abhi apka bacha bohat chota hai mgr phir bhi isko apki body se nikalna zaruri hai. Yeh Kuch medicine de rahi hun. Is se apka baby naturally abort ho jae ga. Phir bhi ap ek bar sham main humare yahan aa jaiye. Hum check kar lain ge k kahin fetus ki koi remain Apke under na ho. It can be dangerous for you."

She nodded blankly and went to home..

It was the most painful process for her.. Not only physically but emotionally as well. She was lucky that her mother was not at home.

With quite difficulty she went to the doctor again.

Doctor instructed her to lay inside a room, as it was a small process of getting out fetus remains from her.

It was a small process but was quite painful. When the doctor was done with her, she laid down exhausted and looked blankly at the ultrasound scan image, she carried with her.