Her Bet

chapter 26

Laria

I opened the door for him and I make way to let him in.

“Hey,” Cole said, with his usual cocky smile.

"Why are you here , Cole?"

"What do you mean? I was horny so I came."

He says getting close to me . I just stand there and look at him.  He tries to kiss me but I turn my head to the side .

"I'm not in the mood."

"Are you serious ? This is the fifth time this week you told me you're not in the mood. What's the matter with you."

"Nothing Cole , can't I be tired everyday.?"

He looks at me nodding slowly.

"Then we don't have to but we can still make out."

He caresses my hand and I pull it away from his grip. I walk away from him .

The silence is just making this more and more tense . Somehow I don't want to see myself close to him again. I don't know why it feels wrong , but I'm just going to follow this feeling. I never should've even agreed to fling with him even after our break up.

"Why are you acting like this?"

"I'm tired , Cole."

"That's bullshit . There's been a massive change with you and let me tell you Laria, it's not going to get you you anywhere . You and I are meant to be baby an-"

"You cheated ,Cole. "

"It was a mistake, grow out of it for God's sake."

"A mistake that you did countless times . With my two best friends too, that's hurtful Cole. You took the two people I could talk to about anything and now I don't have anyone, so I hope you're happy Cole. But this isn't something I can just 'grow out of' . "

"I'm not asking us to date Laria. It's just sex. And it's the only good thing about you ."

"But I'm done Cole. I don't like this anymore...this whole fling shit . The only reason I did it in the first place was because I had hope that maybe we'll go back to how we were before . You loving me and me loving you . I don't even know if the love you gave me was just delusion or what. But I can't keep wasting my time Cole. I've realised that I can't make you love me like how I do . "

I didn't even realise I've been crying until I kept quite.

I know he'll leave soon because he is not here to see me cry . Since he didn't get what he wanted he'll make his way out . He always does.

Yep. I knew it . The door closes and I'm now alone .

But it just makes me break down even more.

Everything I've been trying to act strong toward is all coming down to crash on me . I was trying really hard to not get affected by Pip and Jess' betrayal but eventually it had to come back to me and harder than before.

Even the betrayal of Cole is hitting harder right now. I don't even know how many things I did for him. I've never loved someone so hard before . I even tried to cook for him, I always listened to him , did everything he wanted us to do even things I wasn't comfortable doing.

I should've realised when he left me crying alone when I told him about my dad . I've never been open with anyone about the issues I have with him but the only person I told left me alone after to party with his friends right after he lied to me that  his dad called him but he was busy having fun.

From that day I never cried infront of Cole until today. Even when I found out about his ways I didn't cry in front of him , I acted like it was cool.

Danton didn't even look at me since we came back . I feel like I'm something people use and throw away after , anytime they want. Cole was right , the only good thing about me is the pleasure I give them.

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Danton

"It was a bit intense but I got through it."

"Did she interrogate you?"

"How did you know?"

"I read somewhere that 90% of Indian moms are like that."

"Yeah , she did. She asked me about my studies and the security that I can be able to offer Meera. I felt like I went there with means of a marriage proposal, like why are you asking about my studies."

"Can I be honest ?"

"Sure."

"I think you're not up for the challenge of dating Meera. I just feel like she has a lot of expectations from a guy and all she knows you're still a virgin . She might find out you're not and she might be okay with it until she finds out who took it. I just feel like this relationship is based on a lot of secrets from you."

"What do you suggest I do?"

"Again, end things with her . But if you really like her you don't have to. Anyway, I have some chores so I'll call you back. Ciao."

"Bye."

I hang up the call and look at the ceiling to think more clearly. Should I listen to Barry or should I continue with this.