Craving Speed [18+]

Chapter 18

Alejandro
White Mustang- Lana Del Rey

It's been a few weeks since the aquarium date and I just had training. I spent the week sending Milianna some of her favorite flowers, chocolates and any cliché thing I can think of.

I've spent the whole week in Las Vegas for press and interviews since they always make a big fuss about this weekend's races.

Which means I haven't seen her in a week. I haven't seen her smile, smelled her perfume or kissed her lips in 5 days, 12 hours and 30 minutes.

My breath heaves as I run on the treadmill while music blasts in the background. I slow down into a walk and decide to call her.

She picks up after the second ring.
"Yes?" Her voice comes through my phone and there couldn't be a more perfect sound.

"Hey, estrella." I say and I can't stop the grin from blooming onto my face.

"Why are you calling me?" She adds while faint typing noises sound from the background.

"Ouch, you really know how to swoon a guy." I laugh softly knowing it'll piss her off.

"Shut up. You know what I meant." His voice sounds silky and soothes my mind from miles away.

"I just wanted to hear your voice." It's a pathetic thing to admit but I don't care. For once I feel like expressing my emotions.

"Ale, can we talk about this when you get back? I don't want to talk about something like this over the phone."

Something like this? We're something?

My heart does a tiny flip, but I know what she's scared about.

"I'm okay with that, estrella. We'll sort it out when I'm back home. Watch my race for me, yeah?" I attempt to soothe her thoughts.

"Tìa Elena is planted infront of the TV already, when I'm done with my homework I will," I hear Akira's yawn in the background.

It's now 1am over here and the sun is out but in Barna it's most likely night time, about 10:30 pm.

"Akira still up?" I ask trying to make small talk since I don't want to hang up yet.

"Mhm, I can't get her to sleep. But I need her to, she starts her new pre-school tomorrow." She adds.

After a while we switch to video call and she's working while Kira eventually fell asleep in her lap.

She looks exhausted by the time she finishes her homework, earlier than she expected.

"Estrella, do me a favor and sleep for me," I bring out even though I want her to watch my race.

"But your race... I want to watch it," she looks at me through the screen and I almost cave at her doe eyes.

The key word being almost because I favor her wellbeing above all else. There will be more races she can watch, maybe up close too.

"I have two more races left, you can watch them then," I announced. "I'll see you when I come back, okay?"

Her eyes soften and her hair falls over her shoulder. She really is gorgeous.

"Okay, win for me," That's the last thing she says before she shuts the Skype down and I close my laptop.

I breathe a out a long breath and stop the treadmill. Needles of truth pricking my feet.

I should tell her how I feel. How I feel about us. But how can I know that I want her and why I want her, if she doesn't feel the same way?