Craving Speed [18+]

Chapter 16

Milianna
Hands to myself- Selena Gomez

I check myself in the mirror for the 12th time since I got ready. He's most likely used to girls with no problems flaunting their bodies around. Thin, not a speck of cellulite or a stretch mark as far as the eye can see.

As much as I love Akira, she kind of fucked my body up. In the best way possible of course. But now I'm left with stretch marks that will never go away, no matter how hard I try.

I don't care about them all that much usually but now I feel like their shining through my pants. I remind myself, I am a bad bitch. This is not a date until I say it's a date. I control my life. I get to choose.

But you choose him.

I opted for a more modest fit today. Something that screams, I'm professional and I don't want to fuck my kind of boss.

Although I do, for the sake of my daughter and my dignity, I need to push my desires in a far corner.

Noa and Amarra bursts into my room both wearing smug smiles.

"You have a date!" They squeal like a bunch of schoolgirls talking about a crush.

"No, it's simply a business meeting. To... get to know eachother."

They look at eachother then me, studying my outfit. Which should be a clear indication that I do intend to be a sophisticated lady tonight. I'm wearing a pair of black trousers and a cream white corset top and of course my valentino shoes.

Noa being Noa leans in to smell me. Dammit, i'm wearing the expensive perfume my mother bought me a few years back, both of them know that i only wear it on super rare and important occasions.

"Is that...Delina?" she pulls back with a arched brow and Amarra smells too and throws a smirk at Noa. Lord help me.

"You sneaky bitch!" Noa jumps up with a smile. "Hey, baby" i smile as Akira walks in unknowingly saving me. She sleepily rubs her eyes and sticks her arms so I could lift her up.

I pick her up, she immediatly leans into me. My heart melts, when I look up my two best friends smirking at me and backing out as if they're in a movie. "This isn't over, Lianna" both of them call out before disapearing out of the door.

Akira lays her head flat on the pillows and I brush her curls out of her face. "Are you going on a date, Mamma?" She stares up at me with her doll eyes.

Why is everyone so persistent on wanting me to go on a date? "No, dove." I smile softly and lay next to her. A pout makes it's way to her lips and she cuddles into me.

It's been a while since she had something remotely close to a father figure, but I'd be damned if I fell in love, broke up and left her just as broken. Not my daughter. Not on my behalf.

I escape my thoughts with a simple ping of my phone.

Alejandro:
I'm outside,estrella

Me:
I'm coming... please don't take that in the wrong way.

Alejandro:
Already did.

I roll my eyes and close my phone. Kira already sleeps soundly in a tiny ball. I give her a forehead kiss with the promise that I'll be back.

I walk down the stairs, Amarra and Noa grin like cheshire cats. "You both are creepy" I laugh. The grin and jump up to hug me, I hug them back.

Then they run to the window to peak through the curtains.
"Is that? No fucking way, Liana" Noa gasps and Amarra shoves her out of the way.

"You're fucking thee Alejandro Ramos!?" They whisper yell. My cheeks redden at the thought of me even fucking him. I push my thoughts aside.

"We're not fucking, as I said. We're just... teambuilding." I correct them.

"Alone?" Noa arches her brow. "At this time of day?" Marra arches her brow.

They have a point. The voice in my head nags me.

No, they don't. I get to choose, I need to remember that. Doesn't matter how much I'll miss his hands all over my body and his lips on mine and the way he says my name...

"You kissed him" Noa states

"W-What!? I would never" I lie my ass off.

"Girl, I could smell the sexual pining from a mile away" she laughs with Amarra. Am I really that obvious?

If they can see it, he must too. He's the epitome of a sex god. He is sexual pining.

"Go!" They practically push me out of the door into the cool air. I curse myself for not grabbing a coat or something. I walk to his car and he climbs out, trailing his eyes down my body as if he wishes to study every curve of my body.

The cool feeling of my body is replaced by a warm feeling touching every corner of me.

He looks down at me. "You look breathtaking, estrella." His voice comes out whispered.

I look up at him and he looks as ravishing as ever. Hair combed for once and the first few buttons of his shirt undone. Clearly he wants me dead.

"Thank you," I say as curtly as possible. I still don't want him to think that I'm here for anything else other than to clear up some tension. It's mearly so I can work better, I'm doing this for me.
Right?

A challenging smirk spreads across his face. "You ready, Estrella? I can tell you're excited" he retorts his voice dripping with sarcasm.

"As ready as I can be" I answer with a stiff smile.

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This is not what I signed up for. At all.
I am currently standing at the entrance of one of the most well-known aquariums in Spain, Aquàrium Barcelona, with my boss.

"What are we doing here? It's late and the it's clearly closed-" The words aren't even out of my mouth before the front gate clinks open and a short man waddles our way.

"Mr. Ramos and Mrs. Ramos what a pleasure" he starts. What the hell?

"Oh that's not my name-" I get cut short.
Again. And all Alejandro does is stand there with a shit eating grin, acting interested in what this small man has to say.

"I am Jaime Ignacio and I'll be your tour guide today. Now we normally don't open this late, but since you are a special lady," he nudges Alejandro with his elbow. "We made a exception." He smiles brightly.

I return his smile, I mean who the fuck am I to kill his happy vibe. I can be Mrs. Ramos for one, completely unsexual night.

We follow Jaime inside and go to the gift shop first. The gift shop is filled with toys ranging from plushies to pens. I pick up a otter plushie and look at it.
"Akira would love this, she's been on a marine animal kick lately." I put it back.

"You can get it for her," Alejandro looks down at me with a confused expression.
"Have you seen the price? It's fine." I laugh it off but he keeps pushing.
"I could buy it." He speaks.

"Oh, Alejandro... I couldn't." I begin to speak. "You can and you will. Hopefully I meet Akira soon too."

I nod my head, because it's the only thing I can do to prevent myself from breaking out in thousands of tears in an aquarium giftshop.

I watch as he pays and something stirs in me something bad.

Something very very bad.

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Heyyyyyyyyy

I posted for yall, it's currently 1am as I'm writing this so it gonna be a short ass authors note today!

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Lilac💜