I Can't Live Without Him

Chapter 21: Scared

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Chris looks at me worried trying to figure out if I'm sincere or not. I look back at him with love my hand still on his cheek and now my thumb wiping away a stray tear. "I'm so sorry baby. I didn't mean to make you think like that. I love you more than anything in this world. I promise." He then wraps his arms around my torso pushing his face into my chest as he lightly sobs.

"I don't want to lose you" he says shaky and squeaky.

"I know baby. But I'm not leaving. I swear." I hold the back of his head as he continues to cry. My heart hurts seeing him like this. It makes me feel more guilty of focusing on Matt more than him. And at the fact of what had happened with Matt even if it was a random accident. "Look me and Matt are close. Sometimes things may seem too close between us. But I promise you you're the only thing that matters to me." At that he pulled away from my chest looking up at me. His eyes glossy and painful but yet loving stare back at mine. His hand drifts to my cheek holding it softly before pulling me into him. My lips gently intertwine with his feeling passion grow between us. His right hand moves to my hip pulling me onto his lap deepening the kiss. My hands now lie on his chest moving up and down and soon drifting to his shoulders and his neck. I start to move my pelvis at the rhythm of the kiss making Chris's breath shaky. He then pulls away looking at me deeply.

"I love you too" he smiles lightly and peacefully bringing both his hands to my neck pulling me in sharply. The kiss now grows quick and almost desperate. My hips still moving against his and my core feeling the pressure of his now erected area. One of his hands moves to my ass squeezing lightly. I moan into the kiss as a response leaving my pussy throbbing for attention. That's when we hear the door open.

"Oh shit!" A voice yells and I fly off of Chris's lap into the seat next to him shooting my head towards the person. Nick! Shit!

"You two! Omg! Your both! Omg! Are you both...? Do you both...?"

"Nick shut up!" I yell lightly causing him to cover his mouth and move to the hot tub. His eyes are wide and his mouth open in shock.

"So wait what?! Are you two... together?" I look at Chris who is already looking at me.

"Yes." Chris says still looking into my eyes.

"Alright gross. But awww." I roll my eyes turning to Nick.

"Please don't tell Matt. He doesn't know and I don't think we should tell him yet." I look up at him worried.

"Ok yeah." Nick says getting in. "So when did this happen?!" He asks with a playful voice.

"Beginning of the trip." Chris answers still looking at me. My attention moves back to him as I too stare. "Now can we please continue?" Chris asks finally looking at Nick.

"Ew gross no! Not while I'm in here!" Nick yells and me and Chris laugh kissing again anyways. His hands move to my hips and mine to his damp hair. "Ew ew ew ew ew!" Nick yells running out of the hot tub. He then exits the pool room and goes up to our room.

I again move back onto Chris's lap still feeling his dick on my crotch. We continue to make out until Chris pulls away asking, "when we get home... do you think... um.... Do you think we could ya know?"

"Have sex?" I say knowing what he meant just playing with the fact he won't say it. My eyebrow is raised and my lips form a smirk as I stare at his embarrassed face.

"Well, like obviously not immediately but like do you feel ready for whenever it feels right? Because I do." He asks hesitantly.

My face softens and I look into his eyes lovingly. "Yes Chris. Im ready as long as we know it's the right time and there is no obligation put on either side."

"Ofc yeah." He looks up at me. "I love you."

"I love you" I then lean down and kiss him once more before getting out and grabbing my towel. He soon follows his boner still visible but going down by the minute. I chuckle at the sight and Chris gives me a look.

"Hey this is your doing!" I laugh harder at his comment and we head to the elevator. Once we get in the elevator and the doors close Chris comes up behind me and wraps his arms around my waist swaying me side to side with him. My smile grows. He rests his head atop of mine and stops our movement to then turn me around. I wrap my arms around his neck and hug him tight as he pulls my lower back into him. The doors then open and we both exit the elevator moving to our hotel door then entering.

When we enter our hotel room Nick is frantically packing while Matt is laying on his bed. It's polar opposites. "We're gunna miss our plane!" Nick yells.

"Nick our plane leaves in four hours. Chill!" I say as he runs between the bathroom and his bag stationed on his bed.

"That's what I said and it didn't help. There is no helping him." Matt says staring at his phone.

"Alright well we do need to pack just not frantically Nicolas!" I stare at him darting around the room.

"No time!" Nick yells. Chris is buckled over laughing his ass off at this point.

"Oh good lord!" I flop onto the bed me and Matt shared the night before. I shuffle my way up to the head of the bed and lay my head on Matt's shoulder. "How long until he usually tires himself out?" I ask Matt looking up at him.

"Nick? Tiring himself out? Ha." I laugh at Matt's response and relax back onto his shoulder. I open my phone and go to my texts to find one from my brother, Ian. My eyebrows dart into a confused shape as he never texts me so something must be wrong. I quickly get up and open his text scared.

>>> Texts:

Ian: hey sis. Mom's getting really bad. I don't think I can stay here much longer.

Shit. I get up and begin to call him exiting the hotel room.

"Lily?!" Chris follows me out worried. "What's happening?"

I ignore him to focused on my brother. No answer. "Fuck!" I try again. I start to pace knowing how bad my mom can get. Knowing how angry my dad gets because of it. And knowing my little brother is stuck with it. This is after all why I left. What if things have gotten worse. No answer.

"Lily?!" Chris snaps me out of my thoughts holding my shoulders noticing now that both Matt and Nick are outside with me. Their faces scream scared almost just as much as Chris's.

"We have to get home."