Try platonic

22| Rose: pov

She was living in France for last three months. She easily got adjusted there. Her personality was changed a lot. She started interacting with people. She had befriended some of the colleagues and was now open to activities. On weekends she would go and have fun with her friends. She would practice judo daily in a way it gave her confidence. She was in touch with family. Grandma used to say that she has a life now. Sometimes she would go out with Harry. She started dressing up.

They were not in relationship but she was checking him out. She could see his every effort now. She used to tell him everything. Sometimes she would compliment him. They were having dinner after work.

Rose: "Its good."

Harry: "It is." He looked a bit absent.

Rose: "Are you okay?"

Harry: "You know old you would have never asked this." He was trying to remember her.

Rose: "I am sorry for that."

Harry: "I miss her sometimes. That cold person who could never see me."

Rose: "I do not know how to answer that."

Harry: "Do you know my backstory?"

Rose: "I am all ears."

Harry: "We are four siblings. My father was a drunk he would abuse my mother. Anyway they got separated. I was the youngest. I was most neglected. Nobody could ever see me. I was so shy and insecure about my looks, my status etc. I wanted to get away from my family. So I studied hard and I finally received scholarship.

It was a prestigious college. People were making friends based on interests or status or looks. But I noted you. You made no friends and you were equally cold to everyone. You did not care about anything. All you were interested was in studies. So I studied. Anyway I started liking you. But you could never see me anyway. That made me fall so in love with you."

Rose: "I was like that!"

Harry: "We now talk about everything. Can I tell you my secret?"

Rose: "Yes sure."

Harry: "I am going to therapist for last three months. At first I wanted to cope up with the change in you. You are so different now. Like you can see me. You care a bit. Like you have feelings now. Anyway my therapist after three months concluded that I am mentally disturbed and I fall for people who are toxic and neglectful of my pure existence. Deep in my heart I believe that nobody can love me so when somebody does I tend to run away or lose interest."

Rose: "And?"

Harry: "That is what is happening with me. I am losing interest in you. I know you have become a better person but I miss the old one that toxic self of you. Do you know Dr.Ria? That Indian girl?"

Rose: "Oh yes. Who just had divorce and really bad tempered?"

Harry: "Yes here. In the beginning. She really insulted me like broke my ego. She has bad temperament and is very rude. In a way she is like you. She has no interests in relations or something. She only cares about her kids. She is weary of life and hardly surviving. I asked her once as a joke if she will like to marry me? She said if I can help with her kids and finances then she was okay. Anyway she treated it as a joke. She does not care about me."

Rose: "So?"

Harry: "When I tell all this to my therapist. He advised me that I do not like her but actually I just want to be a father of her kids that I never had and she neglects me so it's filling my needs. They gave me certain medicines and stuff you know to change."

Rose: "Then?"

Harry: "I do not want to get better. I want to marry her."

Rose: "What if she will fall in love with you? You will outgrow her as well what will you do then? I really cherish you but I think you should try to change and get better."