billie
The show started. It was so hard to focus on singing,i would constantly mess up the lyrics. My head was full of thoughts,mostly about Tina,my love.
I felt tired and anxious,but I calmed down a bit when I looked at the crowd.I love my fans,they're like my babies,it hurts a lot to see them hurt and hearing their life storys,i wish I could be closer to them and help them.
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It was almost the end of the show,i was sitting on a chair with a bottle of water in one hand and mic in the other. I looked at the crowd,it felt so surreal. 40k people all here for me,somebody's alone,somebody's with their partner,friends.
I tried my best not to think about Tina,but i couldn't help myself,the morning incident made my heart ache. I put the mic down on my lap feeling my throat burn,my eyes get watery,i covered my face with my sweaty hands and started crying,i couldn't hold it in,I didn't wanna hold it in. The fans noticed it and screamed all together. I heard muffled "we love you" screams,I cried harder.
The last song was playing. I got up and looked at them all"I love y'all so much" i screamed in the mic. "see you all soon" i ran off the stage waving,I went in the green room to take my stuff,Finneas came in.
"Billie! are you okay?" he looked at me concerned.
"do i look okay?" I shot him a glare. "I'm leaving,i need to be alone right now,don't follow me or send anybody,i swear to god finneas if you do-" I walked out aggresively,i hate this shit.
I got in my car,i didn't know where i could go but i had two needs: to eat and to be alone. So,i decided to get some taco bell and spend my time in the first empty place i find.
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I'm in taco bell,it was empty so i thought why not to stay here. Tina has texted me,I opened the chat.
Ashe left,are you all good there?
i ignored it. Turned off my phone so nobody can reach out to me.
I bit a piece of my burrito humming quietly. I looked over at the cashier,she was sitting on a small chair yawning.
"wanna play cards?" I asked loudly,so she could hear me. I don't know why i thought she knew english,but i felt like she did.
"cards? only if my boss is sleeping" she shrugged.
i chuckled pulling my cards out of the pocket. "he defo is"
I walked up to her,i could see her well now,she had short dirty-green hair,her nose and lower lip were pierced.
We played cards for 3 hours,until her shift ended. It was 4 a.m now,I went in the hotel. We didnt exchange numbers or instagram or anything at all to contact,but I loved spending time with her,guess she'll be the kind and talented in cards(somehow more than me) girl from taco bell.
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I got in the hotel. Tina was making bracelets,she was sitting on the wooden floor with her hair in a small ponytail,strings of hair falling down on her face.
She looked up at me,but didn't say anything. I sighed before getting in the closet to change,i changed into a big t-shirt.
"we're leaving tomorrow" I lied down on the bed,she just nodded continuing what she was doing.
"how did the day go with Ashe?did she look after you well?" I asked,she didn't look up again,just nodded,just fucking nodded,"look at me Tina" I said irritated by her ignorance.
She looked up, "she looked after me well,I'm okay" she said,her ton rude. I was going to start yelling at her at this point,losing my temper. But she handed me a cute red and black colored bracelet. "take it if you like it" she said quietly.
I smiled before taking the bracelet and putting it on. "thank you,why are you being a bitch anyway?"
"I'm not being a bitch" she snorted.
"hm of course,now tell me how it went, what did you guys do all day?" I lifted her up and sat her down on the bed.
she groaned. "I'm busy!" She tried to get down but I kept holding her by her waist.
I glowered at her. She huffed and stopped hesitating.
"nothing fun,i showered,we went in the canteen and ate,she applied the ointments and we played games and watched tiktok the rest of the day." she played with the bracelet she had on.
"didn't you eat enough?only breakfast?"
"no Billie,i hungered." she said sarcastically furrowing "we ordered food for lunch"
"I swear to god Tina if you talk to me like that again-"
"I fucking will!What will you do? kick me out again,leave me or maybe fire me? sure,go ahead Billie! I couldn't care less at this point"
"stop being dramatic" I huffed.
"you're the one who was ignoring me all day because of a fucking NIGHTMARE,and I'm the one who's being dramatic?! wow,how fair"
"yes,I was,because who knows who you are? maybe that dream is demonstrating what's going to happen! you're gonna use me like everybody else did and then leave,you're one of them!" I screamed instantly regretting what I said.
she looked at me,genuinely hurt,hesitated for a moment and then whispered."..well if you don't trust me, I might as well quit the job" She tried to get up,I held her by her waist not letting go.
"let me go Billie,if you don't want me here I'm not gonna stay here any longer"
"you're not leaving,you can't quit the job,you signed a contract Tina,you can't quit until the tour ends"
"fuck my life" she whispered before pushing me away and running out of the room. And then I heard a scream in the hall,the stiches...
