I ran in the hall,scared as hell. I saw Tina sitting on the floor holding her knees and crying quietly,her knees were bleeding,i gasped.
I lifted her up and walked back in the hotel room. She didn't hesitate and try to get down,she just cried. My baby..
I put her down on the bed gently and went after the first aid bag. She cried endlessly,while I cleaned up her wounds.
I applied the ointments and put on some bandages. Tina stopped crying,she was zoned out. I took her slippers off,put her phone back on the nightstand,covered her with a blanket and lied down next to her with a deep,long sigh.
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The next morning.
I woke up earlier than Tina,she was still sleeping peacefully,her hair all over her face,her eyes puffy,as well as her lips. She was cute as hell,but I knew we're gonna have another argument when she wakes up. And maybe it will be an endless circle the whole tour.
Tina woke up in 30 minutes.
She was silent for 5 minutes. "you don't want me here,do you?"
"I do want you here Tina" I whispered, "that's the problem"
"why is that a problem?"
"what if you hurt me?"
"but you hurt me wondering if I'd hurt you" her voice was harsher now.
I looked down for a moment and then up again. I got up,lifted her up without asking and got out of the hotel in my slippers. It was 11 in the morning,so there was nobody around.
"what the fuck are you doing psycho?!" She tried to get down,but of course she couldn't.
"don't even try,you know I'm stronger" I teased,she hit me in the back a few times,but not hard or any close to painful,i knew she wouldn't.
We got in the abandoned park,I sat down on the bench,and moved her to my lap.
"I'm sorry for saying that,i didn't mean it,I'm really sorry,i was just so affected by my nightmare, I was scared that it'll come true,that you'll betray me,that you'll hurt me,but I hurt you and I'm really sorry I did" I whispered and kissed her forehead and both cheeks. She looked at me dead in the eyes,her eyes sad,her brows furrowed and started crying,i hugged her,she buried her face in my neck. I kissed her head repeatedly. "I'm sorry my love,I'm sorry" I rubbed her back and massaged it slightly. "I know I hurt you and I'm so sorry" I repeated.
"was it true?what you said? do you really not trust me?" her voice was low and cracky.
"I do baby I do,it wasn't true,i was just mad,I'm sorry"
"okay.." she whispered and put her chin on my shoulder.
We sat like this for 20 minutes,without moving. The only sound around was Tina's sniffling.
"I like you" I whispered. "a lot,like.." I paused taking a breath. "I love you"
She pulled away and looked at me softly,smiling weakly. "I love you too Billie"
I smiled and hugged her again,tighter this time. We spent another 10 minutes just sitting like this.
"let's go in the hotel,shall we?" she asked tickling my neck with her fingers.
"yeah,let's go it's pretty cold out here" I got up with her in my arms and walked towards the hotel. It took me 15 minutes to get there and by the time I got in the room,she was already asleep. It was 11:30 a.m now. I put her down on the bed gently and lied down right next to her,so I could hug her. We're leaving tonight,so we have time to sleep.
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it was 14:00 when I woke up,I looked at Tina.
"are you okay?" Tina asked with a cute,sleepy voice laying on my boobs.
"I am,are you comfortable on my boobs?" I chuckled.
"yes very,I'd lay here forever if I could" she smiled and buried her face in my neck.
"weirdo" I laughed at her silliness. "we're leaving tonight,I think at 22:30,the flight is at 23:40" I warned,she just nodded. "tina"
"yeah?"
"can i get a kiss?" I asked sheepeshly.
"nah" she looked at me. I pouted while she laughed. "I have morning breath baby,you'll probably throw up"
"I won't! pleaseee!" She chuckled and got out of the bed while I begged for a kiss.
"I'll brush my teeth and then you might get a kiss,don't keep your hopes up though" she winked and disappeared behind the bathroom door.
"bitch" I huffed.
"I still hear you Miss O'Connell!" She yelled while brushing her teeth.
"I don't care,you're a bitch!" I yelled back with a smile.
"don't try me my lady,you might regret" she laughed and chocked on her own spit.
"oh I see how it is miss hard to get" I got in the bathroom without warning and she flinched.
"you scared me!"
"I couldn't care less" I snorted. "you brushed your teeth,am I getting a kiss now?" I asked looking at her with a smile.
"yeah" she said in a raspy voice,I could come on the spot just for that sexy morning voice dude. I put my hands on her neck and looked her in the eyes. "you're so beautiful Tina" and I kissed her,she kissed me back immediately.
It was a gentle,loving kiss,it wasn't like the ones I've had before,it was deeper than that. My eyes got watery,I couldn't control my tears and started crying,but I didn't pull away,I kissed deeper while stroking her smooth neck with a small necklace that she has on all the time.
We pulled away eventually. I looked her in the eyes and started sobbing,she hugged me,I sobbed on her shoulder while she rubbed my back and hugged me tighter.
"thank you" I whispered. "thank you for getting me out of the abyss,just you being here helps me a lot,I love you"
"thank you for hiring me and being the best.." she paused for a few seconds. "..friend ever." my heart ached. "not all the time tho,you're a bitch mostly" she chuckled.
"let's go to bed,I wanna spend my day laying in bed with you" I said pulling her out of the bathroom and on the bed.
She laughed. "weirdo" and lied down on me,i smiled. I'm happy.
