I felt hot tears falling down my cheeks uncontrollably, "I'm a horrible person,I'm a horrible person Zoe.. " I kept repeating while sobbing. I felt my heart physically hurt with guilt.
Zoe winced with concern,"No,no,no you're not a horrible person,why are you saying that?" she grabbed my arm and pulled me in for a hug, "it's okay" she whispered soothingly while rubbing my back. I kept sobbing on her shoulder for around 10 minutes, "what happened,bils?" Zoe asked softly.
"I feel so ashamed of myself,Zoe. I'm such a..such a dork. I treated her like shit and I hurt her..I didn't want to hurt her,Zoe..no..I didn't.." I bit my lip holding back tears,Zoe tightened her arms around me nodding, "it's all so overwhelming Zo'...it's just..I thought I would help her hate me by treating her like this so if I turned out not to like her she's not hurt,but that was wrong." I sighed,my voice coming out low and tired, "I can't do this anymore..I can't..I hate this shit and I hate myself."
Zoe rubbed my back gently trying to sooth me. She whispered,"not gonna lie,you really have been acting like a dork but I know why you did it,it's okay.."
I chuckled bitterly rubbing my eyes,"that's not helping Zo' "
Tina
Emily looked at me confused closing the door,"what's going on?"
I huffed looking out the window,"just a small argument,that's it."
"small argument,is it?then why was she crying?" Emily sat down next to me on the couch.
"because it was an argument about our relationship lately and the way we treat each other." I grabbed a cup of water with slightly shaking hands and almost dropped it.
"you don't look okay.." Emily looked at me with concern,furrowing.
"it's all so hard..I hate all these situationships and friends then lovers and then nobody to each other." I snorted. I didn't dare to cry,I held it all back because..I don't know.
"yeah,same.." Emily looked at the turned off TV. "You never told me Billie and you had a "situationship". "
"well now you know.. and it's tough honestly" I put the cup down,it was all empty now.
"maybe you should try to talk to her again after both of you have calmed down." She suggested carefully,feeling like I could explode any moment.
"yeah,well,we'll see." I shrugged biting my lip,hard.
Emily nodded softly,"so,uhm..who's this blonde girl? the one with funny haircut and green eyes?"
"you talkin' about Zoe?" I raised my eyebrow.
"yeah,her" she blushed looking away.
"wait a minute.." I gasped,"you like her?"
"ahm..I mean..I feel like a bit.. but she's cute! you can't blame me for liking her.." she said rolling her eyes.
"You're unbelievable. Dude,you arrived yesterday,you've seen her like twice!" I laughed.
"yeah,and so what? I said just a little bit! It's not like I'm in love with her."
"okay,okay. Don't get all defensive." I rolled my eyes.
"so I wanted to ask. Maybe we should do a double date to sooth up the war you guys have?"
I looked away thinking,it took me a few minutes to decide, "Would they even agree to that?"
"we gotta try and see. It's better than doing nothing. You said there's a show tomorrow? So today is free then."
"yeah,it is.." she looked at at with puppy eyes,I sighed defeated, "fine,fine! we'll ask them,but if they don't agree I'll kick your ass."
"YAYY! I mean,cool." She tried to play it cool but I could see a smile forming on her face.
I rolled my eyes with a small smile,a bit excited,too.
"so,are you texting Billie?" she smirked.
"yeah,okay." I took my phone out with a small sigh. I opened our chat ignoring our last text so I don't get mad.
hey,Emily and I want to invite Zoe and u to go in a club together to sooth up everything that's been going on. If u ignore me I swear to god I'll come and get your ass.
I deleted the last sentence. I couldn't help but feel a bit defensive after the fight.
Emily jumped up excited, "let's find something to wearr!"
14:20
I got a notification. I grabbed my phone and opened whatsapp.
yeah,sure! what time?and where are we meeting?
I smiled rolling my eyes at myself.
be by the exit of the hotel by 21:30.
I felt a bit bad for being cold-ish,but anyways.
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Emily and I were all ready. I put on a very..interesting dress.. I was trying to get Billie exci-..anyways,the dress wasn't too revealing but it sure was tight. I really liked the way I looked,I haven't put on a dress in a while. Emily put on a suit with a revealing chest,she was planning to get Zoe impressed I suppose.
The time we set was getting close.21:27. We decided to get out now.
We went downstairs and when we got close to the exit,I saw her..she looked stunning,she looked sexy as hell. I felt my stomach twist and my face flush. She was wearing this..
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I sighed heavily approaching the girls with Emily,"hey" I mumbled.
Billie was staring at me biting her lip,she moved closer and muttered,"hey..you look really.." she eyed me from head to toe again and sighed, "hot."
I blushed heavily, "oh..thanks,you,too. You're very very hot." I said flushing even more. I can't believe we had a fight a few hours ago and now we're eye-fucking each other.
"so,let's go?" Zoe spoke up,looking at Emily,who was red as a tomato.
"yeah,vamos"
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In the club.
We got here like an hour ago. It was a big two leveled place full of people. What I loved was that it was a lesbian club,so I felt safe.
Zoe and Emily went dancing together. And billie amd I were left alone together. Billie wouldn't stop staring at me,literally eye-fucking me. She stood close to me,we sat together by the bar stand and drunk our drinks in silence.
"so how long are we gonna be in Spain for?" I asked trying to start a conversation.
"we're leaving tomorrow after show." she mumbled.
"oh,cool" I muttered.
Billie nodded. It was silent again,Billie looked at me directly in the eyes and slightly bared her thigh moving the corner of her dress up. My breath hitched,I couldn't take my eyes off of her. She knew exactly what she was doing..
