Cliché - Uhm Tae Goo

Chapter 14 - His POV... The Confession

I used to think that the most nervous I had ever been was when I gave my first audition, or did my first ever interview, or maybe my first ever meet and greet event. I was wrong, so wrong.

Today is wednesday.

We'll go on a "date" . Well not really, but for me, it's a date.

I very carefully picked an outfit and got ready.

I drove to her apartment and took out my phone to text her.

Tae goo: I am waiting for you :)

Y/n: Just five minutes!! No, actually, can you come upstairs and help me with this necklace, I am stuck :(

Tae goo: okay :)

She opened the door, and I am immediately captivated by her beauty. She is wearing an off the shoulder dark green sundress with a golden floral print. For a second, I forgot to breathe. I am snapped out of my imagination when she hurries inside after asking me in.
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Y/n: Thank God you're here. I really need your help getting this stupid chain out of my hair.

It was then I noticed her hair tangled up in the chain of her necklace. She probably got it stuck while putting it on, and it made me chuckle just a little.

Tae Goo: Can you turn around so I can untangle it?

Y/n: Oh, yes.

And she turned around, her dress twirling with her movement.

I carefully brushed the rest of her hair except the one strand that is tangled, away from her neck, baring it. This close proximity is making my cheeks flush but I can't let her see it. I slowly start untangling the chain from her hair. She hisses a little when I pull one strand a little too much and it makes me even more attentive and gentle. I untangle all of it and then clasp the necklace. She brushed her hair back once again hiding her bare neck and I can feel the heat in her cheeks too.

Y/n: Thank you so much. I had been trying to get it out of my hair for the last 15 minutes.

Tae Goo: It's okay! Take your time getting ready, I'll wait.

Y/n: let me just put my shoes on and then we can go.

She hurries away, possibly towards her walk in wardrobe to put on her shoes while I wait for her. It didn't take much time for her to return. She put on some light jewellery as well. It looks like she put an effort in her outfit, and it made our date feel a little more significant.

Tae goo: You look..... beautiful.

I saw a hint of blush in her cheeks.

Y/n: Thank you. Now, let's go!!

She skipped giddily towards the door. She seems happier today which makes me happy too.

I opened the car door for her and she sat inside. I then drove us to the newly opened cafe I had told her about.

The car ride went easy, maybe a bit heavy. We put on some music but turned it off soon and started talking about our lives. She told me about her childhood. How she had always been the one who had wanted to take care of other people because she was so cherished by her parents as an only child, she wanted to do it for other people too, the sick, and deprived. Until her parents died, and then she realised she was left all alone and actually felt what other people felt, but was really glad she was doing something for them. It made me proud,and sad, but if she were to give me a chance, I would never let her be alone anymore. She doesn't know it yet, but I'll confess very soon. It's something I have planned for today. I'll tell her about my feelings towards her, and I hope I don't have a panic attack before that.

We entered the cafe and sat down. The interior of this cafe is very simple, yet, a little nostalgic. Everything is made of wood and decorative vines and flowers are prominent all over the place.

I asked what she would like to order and she asked for an ice vanilla latte - my favourite. She knows it. I know. That's why she ordered it. Even when i had went to her apartment for the first time, she didn't offer me coffee, instead, she gave me chamomile tea, because she knows I do not like the bitter taste of coffee. I smiled a little inside and gave an order for two ice vanilla lattes.

The latte was really good, and so was my view, Although we barely made eye contact.

We left the cafe and decided to go to a nearby park for a walk.

Y/n: it's been such a long time since I've been out. I usually am only working, when I am not, I stay at home. I do not really go outside for anything other than work. It feels really nice, I feel without any worries, really peaceful. Thank you for today.

The heartfelt smile she gave me after saying that, made me fall more and more,...harder.

We sit at a bench. She is looking around the park, at the kids playing, the parents watching them, the group of teenagers on the other side on a picnic having pizza. She's smiling. Brighter. If only she knew what it was doing to me. I am mustering up my courage. There are so many thoughts running in my mind. What if she doesn't like me? What if she doesn't want to date me? Just because she liked me on screen, does not mean she would want to be with me in real life. What if I leave this park, losing what I have, this little strange relationship, this connection with her and she doesn't want to see me again? I am fighting all of these thoughts but the optimistic side of my mind won. What if she does like me? What if she does want to be with me? I imagine this opportunity slip out of my hands like sand, just because of my stupid anxiety. I have decided, i will indeed tell her all that I am feeling.

I turn in her direction and she senses it. She looks towards me, into my eyes. For a moment I don't say anything, cherishing each and every millisecond I get to look at her. She's looking at me with anticipation in her eyes, I know she is, waiting for me to say something, because clearly I look like i am fighting to form a coherent sentence in my mind. I probably look like an idiot, or maybe a toddler, saying it's first words.

Tae Goo: y/n, i don't know if I am selfish for this, I don't even know if I deserve to say this right now. The first time I saw you, it was at an event we both attended. You were wearing a black sparkly dress with a slit. I don't think you remember me from that day. Probably, you didn't even know of my existence at that time. That was the first time I laid my eyes on you, and I haven't recovered since then. Waiting for you has been the longest time I have ever had to spend with my thoughts. The moment I read that article, my heart exploded into fireworks. The moment I stepped into that set of the variety show and saw you again, I knew you were the only person I had ever wanted this much in my life. You do not have to answer me right now. You do not even have to say anything. Just know that I love you with all my heart. I want to be with you each and every second, sleep next to you with you in my arms. I want your love, your touch and everything no one has ever gotten.

I love you.