I wanted to be Normal! ✔

Chapter 18: shine's boy

Boun entered the brunet's room, closing the door behind him. He looked at Prem and he seemed catatonic, his eyes were nowhere to be seen, his body as static as a statue. Boun took just two steps to stand in front of Prem, held his slightly chubby face and lifted it, making the vision that had been lost catch up with him.

He gave a sideways smile as he stared into the beautiful black eyes. Prem stared at his simple smile, he opened his mouth slightly but no sound came out.

"It's okay, you don't have to say anything," Boun said quietly. The younger man's little hands trembled a little "Do you want to sit down? We can sit here on the carpet in the bedroom" Boun went downstairs and Prem followed him.

The two sat down on the floor, the kitten circling the blond, running its body and tail over Boun's body. Prem watched the cat in its movements, that cat was so sly and managed to be even more sly when it came to Boun. The kitten was not ashamed to show his affection for the older man, Toothless was a brazen cat.

Prem also wanted to cling to the older man's body and forget the world existed, basking in the warmth of Boun's arms. The brunet swallowed as he noticed his sudden and suspicious thought; never before had he wanted to be close to someone or seen someone as a possible home.

Boun held the brunet's trembling hands, Prem focused his gaze on the blond's handsome face as he held his hands and stroked them.

'He's so bright, his hair looks like sunshine, it's the only thing with such a vivid color in my room. His smile is so magical, I could lose myself in it forever without thinking about anything else. How can he be real?' Prem's thoughts were focused on understanding how that being could be real.

Boun looked back at the brunette, Prem had a quizzical expression, the blond moved his body closer to the other.

"Hey, do you want to take a walk outside? It's a nice night," he sounded excited.

"It's late," he said quietly.

"What's the matter? Come on, let's go for a walk, with no direction" he stood up and lifted Prem with him.

"I don't know if..."

"Xiiiiiu... We're just going," he took the brunette's hand and dragged him out of the room. They passed through the living room, took the key to the apartment and left, leaving Kao asleep on the sofa.

They went downstairs and out into the street, the night sky was dark and starry, the street was empty, it was almost two in the morning. Boun didn't let go of the other man's hand and kept dragging him along the deserted street.

Prem looked at their joined hands, his heart was beating hard against his chest but it was a good acceleration, he looked at the blond next to him 'I wonder if he's got his heart racing too?' A small smile appeared on the brunette's lips.

Boun stopped his walk near the park next to the building, he led Prem there, the children's toys were there. Boun walked over to the swing and sat down on one of them, Prem leaned against the clasp that held the swing.

"Sit down too," Boun swayed a little.

"I'm not a child."

"Me neither... But it's nice sometimes to just forget that we're adults full of worries and just swing around like we're seven again" he looked straight ahead 'I guess his childhood must have been good' The brunette thought "come on" he got off the swing and pushed Prem onto it, making him sit down.

Boun laughed at the other man's strange reaction. He took the brunette's hands to the ropes of the swing and told him to hold on without letting go, he turned around and swung slightly, Prem was slightly startled by this movement and gave a small cry.

"Are you scared?" Boun asked, but he was still swinging.

"I've never done that," Prem said, a little scared, "I'm going to fall."

"No you won't, trust me, I won't let you fall" Prem looked at the blond over his shoulder "look forward, swing your legs back and forth" Prem started to do this and didn't even notice when Boun had let go of the swing, it was swinging by itself. The blond went over to the swing next to him and sat down, starting to swing too.

"How can you go so high?" Prem asked when he saw that the blond was swinging higher.

"All you have to do is put more strength and momentum into it" Prem did and was soon on the same level as Boun.

They were two children indeed, Prem felt light, Boun had the power to make everything light. Boun looked at the brunette and saw that Prem was smiling sweetly, a smile he had never seen before, an innocent smile, a happy smile. The blond smiled back, he had managed to make Prem forget his problems for a little while. They stayed there playing on the swing for a while, Prem was enjoying himself.

"Let's go on that one!" Prem exclaimed, got off the swing and ran to the slide "I've never been on one of these before."

"Why haven't you ever been on one of these?" Boun ran over to where the other was standing.

"My childhood wasn't a Disney movie" Prem analyzed the toy, still euphoric and excited to get on.

"And what was it like?" Boun asked unpretentiously.

"My family wasn't a model, it was more like a horror movie, my father was a monster and my mother... I don't know how to define her. She was good to me but she left me too soon."

"What happened to her?"

"She killed herself... She couldn't stand that house, let alone the miserable life she led, but she always said she loved me and that I wasn't to blame," he found a way to get on the toy.

"And why would you be guilty?"

"This toy is amazing" he had climbed down the slide "Can I run?" he asked the blond like a happy child, Boun smiled and nodded. He wasn't going to press the issue, Prem had already told him part of it without noticing, he wasn't going to push him any further, but now he knew a little. And he could already tell that it wasn't a very pleasant story.

"We can play tag," Boun proposed. Prem agreed, "Run, It's my turn" The two of them started running around the park, laughing loudly and having fun on that deserted night, they didn't need anyone else.

At some point it was Prem's turn, who ran after the blond through the park, until he managed to catch Boun and hold him around the waist in a hug from behind, making the blond laugh.

"I've got you," he said close to Boun's ear, sending a shiver through the older man's body.

"You can't run away anymore Prem"

"I felt afraid"

"You can be afraid of anything in the world... except me"

Boun turned back, still in the embrace, and held Prem's face, kissed the tip of the brunette's nose, making his white cheeks turn pink and warm. Prem moved closer, joining his lips to the blond's in a slow, welcoming kiss, just the way Prem liked it.