What I see.

Aug 26th 2024

I can't decide on a president in my country. 

Both to me look like bad future problems. On one side I see corporate greed and plans made behind closed doors and the other I see an egostical personality taking over and the violation of our rights with religon taking over the law. 

I see no benefit in not being able to see what your getting. 

And I see no benefit in what I can see from the other.

I am not so foolish as to believe every word I hear just because it may benefit me, nor the words backed by even my same religon. Taking everything with a grain of salt I can't decide- what I see are the beginnings of fascism, with what little understanding I have of it.

November is coming too fast. 

I'm getting all my legal papers sorted as fast as I can. There is no time to delay or stall any longer as I and others can not afford to. I worry greatly for the children of this country. 

This country is well off yet the people can't afford much unless they're in debt from schooling that'll take perhaps decades to a lifetime to undo. No one can afford a house off of minimum wage. Few can afford to buy food off of minimum wage, and I see my friends who work more hours than I struggle.  There are so many abandoned houses yet the government does not make use of them for housing. There are also many many homeless who could use a home, and aid in fighting their mental health problems and addictions. 

There should be more programs helping people reintegrate into society including those in getting out of prison, but no, no we cant possibly help lower the rate of incoming prisoners that we use for unpaid labor *cough *cough slavery. 

We have rights, but with our own eyes we are watching them fall away slowly.  Those in the minorities are being erased media- slandering comments- politics making us into a debate- as if basic human rights and respect were up to debate. 

And lets not forget the growing control of women's and people born with female autonomy's reproductive systems. Yeah cause that helps lower unsafe sex rates, domestic voilence, and unsafe abortion practices. Or, yeah you know whats great!? In at least one of our states let's go sentence women and others who get abortions to 99 years in prison, but not the raping pedoplile that abused neighborhood children. 

I don't know where to go if I can not stay. But I and others are watching. My mother assures me everything will be okay, but has she read the 2025 plan? I've seen parts but I can't bear to read it in full. Just like how I can't stand debates where it doesn't matter if your morally right. Winning is baised all on ego and sound speaking. The comments are all slurs regardless. 

I have distant family in germany. Funny if I moved there to escape. I won't. But it'd be ironic knowing their history with fascism. 

When the dust has settled after four more years. Do you think more concentration camps will exist here? They already have them for immigrant families where they abuse the children in their after forcibly separating them from their parents. Then or instead, place them for adoption to some american family and no way for their actual parents who want and love them to be reuited. I wonder will they deport those children when their adults one day?

And if you don't look "american enough," which somehow means white or maybe if you look of african american decent, you could get deported even if you've lived here for 30 years. 

I wonder what kinds.

Those too fruity? They might say. A lil gay, a lil trans, a little bit like an ally?

Those who don't look especially white? Been there wouldn't be surprized. 

Those who aren't christian? Or oppose it vehemetly? Been there wouldn't be surprized. 

I hear the ben shapiro podcast talk and they say things that at times invalidate a person existance or once that religious laws are okay. You can't force someone to be christian, but its okay to make laws based off of it to keep people in check with it essentially. 

I can't quote word for word. But that is around the jist of what I heard. I'd go searching for it, but I do not want to have to listen to their words for hours as they interupt people in their debates or conversations. 

-sigh

Welp maybe I'll go garden today and clean my room some. Who knows how long it will be till I can't have those things. Call me dramatic, but no one truly ever knows what will happen with either president.  But I know one is just a pawn and the other is sucking up to religon to gain a mass following. 

I hope God is truly an understanding and loving being. The amount of religious trauma coming this way about to slam into us like a train - this country is going to need His's understanding, patience, and hope. 

People were never meant to weaponize or politicalize God's word in my opinion. 

But who knows.