karla jenner [a kardashian/jenner fanfic]

Chapter 38

Karla was just so anxious. All the time. She hated her mom leaving the house and she was anxious to be alone. Her sisters tried getting her out but she couldn't do it. What if something happened?

Billie was supportive and spent all her free time at Karla's house and managed to get the girl out for a small walk around the community, but it was clear it exhausted her mentally as much as it did physically.

Karla hadn't expected to feel this way. She had craved to be back to normality when she was stuck in that small hospital bed, but now she feels like she just wishes she was stuck there. Karla couldn't ever calm down, she was too on edge. She just felt like a burden all over again.

"It's normal to feel this way," Christie, her therapist told her, "You went through something extremely traumatic."

Karla nodded as she played around with a loose string on her hoodie - well, Billie's hoodie.

"You need to talk through these thoughts with those around you, okay?" Christie said, "Take one step at a time." She suggested, "Go on small trips out, even if it is just next door to Khloe's."

"I'm just so scared." Karla said, "I know bad things happen in life and there's nothing anyone can do to stop it... I know no one is immune to bad things happening. But that night," Karla started getting emotional, "I had no idea anything would happen. I was so happy, I had just started my relationship with Billie and finally becoming content with my life. Then what happened just ruins me. I could have never saw it coming." She said, wiping under her eye, "And the unpredictability of something like that happening again is just awful."

Christie nodded, "And you can get back to that. You just need time." She said, "When we first met you had no hope and felt so lost." Christie said, "You won't feel like this forever, I can guarantee it."

Karla nodded, "I know."

"We've spoken about a lot today," Christie said, "When I see you next week I would love it if you will have gone somewhere and we can go through it. We can set you some targets, okay?"

"Yeah of course." Karla said although she could already feeling herself becoming more anxious at the thought of making her way out these four walls, "Thank you for today."

Karla walked Christie to the front door and said a final goodbye before she sighed and put her back to the door before sliding down it. Toast walked over to her and sat down in front of her with a wagging tail. Karla put her head on top
of her dogs and continued stroking him. She was grateful to have him to keep her company.

Kris walked out into the hallway, hearing the goodbyes to her daughters therapist and wanting to see how she was. Kris smiled and walked up to her daughter and sat beside her.

"Are you alright, sweetheart?"

"Just tired is all." Karla said, "Billie's coming over soon if that's okay."

"Of course angel. Remember your sisters are coming over in 30 minutes." Kris said, "Billie is obviously more than welcome - she's family now."

Karla smiled, "I need to go and shower, could you help me wrap up my stomach?"

Kris nodded and held her arm up for Karla to come and help her up. They made their way upstairs into Karla's room and the younger girl took off her top, leaving her in her sports bra and sweats.

She kept her head up and avoided looking down at her abdomen. Karla never wanted to look at her stomach, the massive scar felt too real when she saw it. Kris grabbed the dressing and put it over her daughters stomach carefully. The wound was stitched up and the stitches were out but her doctors told her to keep it covered when she showers to avoid any perfumed soaps going near it. When she was out of the shower her mum, or Billie would clean it with wipes and she'd put a clean cotton top over it. Again, Karla could do it herself but she didn't want to.