my bummer diary

wtv

I feel like everybody hates me I feel like my mom hates me and my dad hates but idgaf if my dad hates me bc I also hate him

I wish my parents would just get divorced I'm so tired of their fights and I'm so tired of my brothers acting out like either kys or stop threatening to

but I also feel bad for my brother bc he got the worst of my dad's abuse even when he did nothing wrong

I also used to think that still getting beaten till this age is normal (not that getting beaten is normal or wtv)

I'm so sorry for my brother bc he probably has the worst childhood trauma ever but also I still fl8nch when ever my dad is approaching me when he's mad so idk what's that abt

one time my dad was arguing with me and I didn't want to say anything bc I didn't know what would anger him and when I didn't say anything he would also still get madder so idk so when he approached me and I flinched bc I thought he was gonna hit me (bc I still get beaten over stupid shit) he was like why are you flinching are you scared of me and I was like duh

I fucking hate my dad so much and my mom was almost able to get away yesterday but my dad threatened to khs so went back home and my dad threw another tantrum so my mom forgave him

and since yesterday I still won't talk to my dad or even be in the same room as him and my mom asked why I wont talk to my dad so I told her I'm just in my room and wtv so that I don't upset her

and I'm so sorry for my mom and I hope one-day she actually has the courage to get put of this shit house

oh yeah and my dad is jobless too to add the cherry on top

I hate him so much I don't ever want to be like him or to marry someone like him

I cant wait till I graduate

sorry for trauma dumping

atleast I bought a new vape 🙂