Acceptance

Where it all started

Life was always miserable for pi since middle school
He had always been bullied,humiliated and much worse he was never appreciated for who he was because of his looks

He wears thick glasses and braces that makes it hard to talk normally. He was an introvert doesn't have friends and a total nerd. He always gets good grades to make his parents proud he thought he'll also be happy being an academic achiever but he didn't really get that happy he was never satisfied with himself he had a hard time loving his self

He always felt so unlovable because of his looks
He really wanted someone to love him as he is not because they want to use him for getting high marks and play him like a toy.

Teenage depression pulls.
The smiles and laughter fades like memories
The weight of the world pains his shoulders
His organs are working
His heart is beating
But is he mentally here?

He looks at the mirror crying his heart out everyday because he felt ugly and hideous

No one understands him
They won't understand him

Because they're beautiful.

The bruises and scars go away
But people's words never go away

The amount of void and pain he was in was unimaginable.

He's crying in his room silently because he can't open up to anyone at home his parents are always at work his first eldest brother works abroad his second eldest brother is always busy with college stuff so no one is home most of the time except him.

He's drained.

Flashback:

Pi woke up thinking of the miserable day ahead of him in school getting up from his tear stained pillow trying to think of something to prevent going to school today but failed.
Entering the school gates and going inside he instantly feels the hatred stares and even some pity stares everyone around is judging him like some sort of prey.
He has no energy to do work in school he just stares at the blank notebook papers thinking how did everything go wrong in his life
He just wants this day to end
This misery to end.

In break time he always hides in the bathroom because he is too embarrassed to eat lunch alone he haven't eaten for days
Why?
Because one of his bullies said he gained weight and is becoming a pig
Those words hit pi like a knife
He is now so pale and has no energy
After school ended he was about to leave from the gates until a group of boys dragged him to a corner and started beating him for no reason and took videos and pictures to humiliate him and started saying hurtful things
He doesn't feel anything anymore
He just wants this to end
After they left him
He got up and started walking to his house he barely could walk
He started thinking
One day he's afraid his legs will already forget how to stand and walk his knees will split apart sore and painful
He can't help but question
"What was even the point of standing?"

He reached home and jumped to bed
Finally it's over
It's a living hell
He feels lonely
He feels sick
Tired
Had enough of this

He went to his drawer and got a bag of pills
He stared at it for a while until he heard duean his brother about to enter the room he quickly hid the pills and put a smile on his face

"Hi duaen how was your day?" Pi asked

"Fine,I'm tired as hell I'm gonna go shower duaen replied lazily then looked over at pi and asked

"What in the world happened to you pi why are you full of scars?"  Duaen asked worriedly

"Don't mind it I'm fine" pi replied still smiling in pain

Duaen ignored him and started treating his wounds

"Ai pi you don't have to struggle alone tell me who did this I'll kill them " duaen said angrily

"No I'm fine don't mind it" pi said hissing in pain while duaen is treating his wounds

Duaen sighed he knew pi is stubborn and won't speaks up.

End of flashback

So this is how pi days went
He was drained.