Better with you - Gojo x Geto

Chapter 17

-Gojo POV-

As I'm sitting in this car with a driver who I've started a conversation with, his last question replays in my head.
"Not to be annoying but I thought you were living with your best friend?"
Now, I'm not too sure what to say. Am I going to talk about my feelings and why I lied about Suguru being my boyfriend to some driver I just met?...

That honestly might just be the best option.
"Well actually, I lied. I've liked the guy in living with for a long time, and he definitely doesn't like me back, and I'm trying to cope with this stupid situation by not thinking about it. About the fact that we will be best friends forever, and nothing more."
It feels like this guy is pulling emotions out of me. I'm ranting to him, I feel bad.

"Because even though I love being his friend and hanging out with him and going to cafes with him and spending time with him, I wanna be able to hug him, kiss him, sleep in the same bed as him every night and have him not find it weird. I want him to tell me that he loves me and that he cares about me and I want to feel like I'm actually in a romantic relationship with him."
I know that I'm greedy.

The driver keeps his eyes on the road, but for a few seconds there is a slight surprised expression on his face, then he slowly starts to smile. It's sort of a comforting smile, but I don't know why he would be comforting me right now. "Now, you clearly have a lot of bottled up feelings towards your best friend." He starts. "Let me tell you something; when I started liking my boyfriend, I was in a really similar situation to you, we were best friends."

"I figured that he would never like me back and that it would always be unrequited, and that was not a good feeling. Every time I saw him, I felt like hugging him and telling him all my feelings about loving him and wanting to be with him, but I was always too scared. Eventually I decided that continuing to be with friends with him while liking him that much would hurt me more than it helped me, so I selfishly pushed him away."

I can't tell where this story is going, but now I'm hooked.

"After only a few days of me not talking to him and losing contact with him, he came into my house, yelled at me for being so stupid and not telling him about what I was feeling, and told me that he liked me too, and not in a friendship way, in a romantic way." The driver finished.

This guy is sort of getting on my nerves. This stupid story, however true it may be, gives me hope. Hope that I don't want, because the more I think about Suguru liking me, the more I won't be able to stand him not liking me. "So you're telling me to go and tell him all my stupid feelings? To end our friendship because my stupid self had to start liking him? Not everybody is as lucky as you." I say, the angry tone definetely coming out in my voice.

"Yes, that's exactly what I'm saying. Go to your guy, and tell him everything. If he doesn't want to be your friend over that, then he wouldn't have been a good boyfriend or friend. If he doesn't like you, things might turn awkward. Everyone feels different on the receiving end of romantic feelings, but eventually, one of you will reach out and you will be friends again. Shoot your shot, and do your best."

Suddenly, the car comes to a stop. "Well, here we are. Good luck fighting the curse, and confess already!" The driver says as I step out of the car onto the sidewalk. I can't help but think about what he said as I walk to the cursed location.

-Geto POV-

"Ok, I think you have to go that way to get to your curses location. Have fun getting rid of it, see you soon." Shoko says. I nod my head back at her, ready to fight.

Even though I obviously should be thinking about fighting the curse, I can't help but think about everything going on with Satoru and my feelings that Shoko understands but I don't. However, I have a trick up my sleeve.
As I'm walking towards the curse, I pull out my phone and look up: is wnting to cudfle wit my besy friwnd norml

Great typing skills, I know

The first article link that comes up is: Why do couples always want to cuddle?
Huh.
How about the next one?
What role does physical connection play in a relationship?
Ok, there's still more... here!
Is it normal that I always want to be physically close to my best friend?
There we go! Now let's see the answers to this person!
Well, you might be attracted to your friend romantically, and...
Bro you obviously like this friend...
I'm getting the vibe from this thread that you like your best friend...

What???
All the comments supposedly say that... uhh... ... romantically att...racted? My heart feels like it has sped up, and I don't remember when it started beating faster. I obviously don't like Satoru. He's my friend. He is my friend, and I'm trying to tell myself that, but I should still consider this because there is a 0.00000001% chance I like him. Anything is possible!
I like to consider myself mature, obviously not to the level of a 40 year old parent, but at least for my age. The question here is...

Am I emotionally mature enough to decipher my feelings? If I really think about it, the things that I have been feeling about Satoru are things you would see in a highschool romance movie.
This might be a possibility, and I know this is going to cause problems.

1015 words!

Guys, I got Covid for the 3rd time😭😭😭 spent like the last 11 days in bed, I think this might have been the most sick I've ever been (Seriously though, when I got covid in the past it wasn't nearly this bad) also I'm not an anti vaccer I have gotten 4 of the shots and I think I'm up to date🗿🗿🗿 anywayyyy sorry for the negativity! I have written this book over around a month and a bit now? And so I can't tell if I'm progressively getting worse at writing, a likely situation lol

Thanks for reading, hope u enjoyed!!!!! (: