Bini Imagine book

Living life with you. (Aiah)

(Out of nowhere 3 am thought ko to at kinilig ako kaya share ko with you guys..)

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Warning: Ultra mega delulu-ness pro max, also medj set na sya in the future ha..

Alex's POV

"Aiah it feels like I can't feel you any more because of how far ahead you are with worrying about the future" I said now with tears brimming my eyes, "Why are you stopping me from looking at my future Alex? What's so wrong about worrying about the future?" She said now frowning at me. 

"Because I want you to look at the now.. Look at how it's ruining us that you're so focused on what's ahead of you, that you don't even realize what's happening right in front of you" I said letting out a tired sigh, I've tried my best to keep a strong front but if she keeps this attitude up I'm afraid that we might not even last that long. 

"Aiah, you get so ahead of yourself that you don't even realize that you're breaking apart what we've already built and what we've fought to hard to have" I added now crying, "But Alex I'm doing this for us not just for me, I'm thinking ahead for the both of us. You were always in my thoughts and in my plans especially when I was working for our future, I'm doing this for the both of us so why would I be breaking our now?" She asked now crying as well. 

I just looked at her and shook my head before looking down, I could feel my knees trying to give out on me but she grabbed a hold of my hand, before lifting my head up by the chin with her other free hand. 

"Aiah.. You're unconsciously breaking the now by focusing too much on our future.. I just need you here with me, but how can I have you here when you're already there way ahead of me.." I told her, she engulfed me in a hug and we both just cried. A couple minutes go by and I finally decided what I should do..

"I think we need a break.." I said with my head still on the side of her head, "Wha- Alex no" She tried to say while pulling away from the hug, "No Aiah, we need this. I would hate to be that person but if you can't be here with me and stop worrying about the future then I don't-" i paused trying not to cry. 

"Then I don't think we're on the same page at all, I appreciate how you're worried about our future but I just need you here. You get so overworked trying to plan for the future yet here I am.. I just need you with me Aiah" I said. 

---(A few days later)

It's been a few days after I last saw Aiah, I've tried my best with ignoring her on everything, even going as far as not opening my social media accounts just so I can avoid seeing her post or posts about her. 

Though she has respected my decision of us taking a break from each other, she has been persistent on sending flowers to my condo along with a hand written note that came with it. She's really making it hard for me to ignore her..

"Talagang kinakaya mong hindi sya pansinin noh?" My friend Sally asked, "Teh hindi.." I said now almost crying as I placed my head on the table in front of us, "Eh bat hindi mo na lang kasi pansinin?" Sally asked. 

"Eh kasi naman, ako tong nahihirapan na sa med school tas sya pa tong pagod rin sa trabaho nya at nangungulila ako pero mas busy sya sa pag prepare para sa future namin, eh halos wala pa nga kami doon sa part ng buhay namin" I said. 

"Mag pakasal na kasi kayo" Sally said giggling at me, I lifted my head and just threw one of my notebooks at her. "Oh bakit tutal yun naman mga hinihint mo diba, sabi rin naman sayo nila tita pati magulang ni Aiah mag pakasala na kayo" Sally said.